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Saturday, November 01, 2003

damn.. what a day this was.. first, had to like pretend nothing happened. gotta like stay damn happy... was trying real hard to cover all my sadness, my anger, my lonliness. friends that i though were my good friends.. did they even give a damn? I guess it's really THAT difficult to find a good friend. those that i can rely on are very sparse... and that asshoLe... what's he doin? What the fuck does he want.. i don't know if i should just cancel the phone line.. i mean since he doesn't call me... he said wats the point of calling me. imagine your boyfriend saying that to you.. and it's like he's been always so possesive, so unreasonable.. and worst still.. he isn't local.. working as a construction worker. who would want? i find that.. i dunno how we started. it's just a game... but i guess i've fallen deep into this game... and if i were to quit now.. i will hurt myself.. and him... but if i continue.. the damage will be more severe.. i'll see.. if he doesn't call me in another 3 days time.. he's gotta take his lil booty and pack home.. i'm gonna cancel his line.. but again... wat will the phone bills be like? thousand bucks? possible? don't know... perplexed..
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