Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Friday, May 28, 2004

just got my results... DISAPPOINTED. what had happened??? had 2 great blows.... one is the module called ==> Music for Moving Images. I had all distinctions for music and audio related modules.. why did i get a B grade for this module? is something really wrong wif me? sigh... but actually i had kinda expected a B grade for this... cos all my assignments i've got B.
another shock is Entrepreneurship. how we got our grade is by the group presentations.. our marketing plan. and also our test. this girl in my group called Teng... my good fren. she got a Distinction for this module.. so all of us thought if Teng's got a distinction, then we all shouldn't fare badly... at least an A.. but I got a B. why's that so? I can feel this fire burnin inside me.. rising.. is the lecturer some bloody buaya.... i'm not sayin this cos Teng's the prettiest in the group.
but in another group where the stupid Cheryl is in, she also got the highest grades... unfair.. i feel... life's so sad.

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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Monday, May 03, 2004

lookin like a panda now.. with those dark rings ard moi eyes.. havent slept well last night. was so tensed up about my mumi exam... but when i got the paper.. i wish i hadnt slept so late last night and woke up so early this morning just to study!!! none of the topics came out.... so i think i'll score miserable. there goes my distinction... this sem sucks big time.. i'm being pressurized to score well.. but i just can t. i'm starting to give up hope on myself... my last hope is ELIT... hope i can score well for that.. it's just the memorizing part that kills.... will i ever make it to Melbourne Uni?? i don't know.... i don't think so... i'm such a failure.. aren't i?? i'm driven to desperation to score.. yet... i cant do it. i don't have that willpower. i seem so stupid. what are my triads.. i often ask myself that. i thought it was music... or design. but no.. those don't seem as if they were... what can i do to prove myself.. know myself better?? argh. feel so bottled up. sick and tired of living already.

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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14:44