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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

man.. i gave up doin my math homework. hate it when this happens. but it happens all the time. lol. shit... just 4 ismple questions about marginal cost. yet.. i dunno how to do. how does differentiation happen when you differentiate q^2 it should be 2q, right? how come it becomes 2q/q??? hrmph....!!!!!

don't know if i should go for tennis tomorrow. i'll probably suffer.
firstly, i'm going to meet clarence at raffles hotel for lunch. so i can't wear my tennis attire and trek shoes, rite? then i need to bring my laptop cos i need to show him and edit the photos on the spot. then! i need to bring my tennis racket. i don't think i can handle so many things man... shoe bag, bag with heavy laptop (mine's not fujitsu!!!), tennis racquet. i don't wanna miss tennis again... yet i can't postpone my meeting. -_-"

y am i worrying over so many kichit things!!!! argh.
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Saturday, September 24, 2005

is blogging going out of fashion suddenly? almost NO ONE is blogging ANYMORE!!! this would probably force me to do what i'm suppose to do and not "hang around" the net so much. kaka. dan says i'm too comfortable at home that's why i refuse to hang out.

university is really very different from poly man... in poly we got for lectures without lecture notes cos tim r always reads straight from the slides. what is there to copy? or should i say.... he tests us on whatever that is not covered?
even if we brought our lecture notes, there won't be anything worthy to take note off.
at university, every single lecture, our slides are scribbled with notes. sometimes even extra sheets of paper need to be attached. 5 mins late and we'll probably be lost. hoho. how competitive.

feel like drinking these days. so... is anyone free next friday? let's go brewerkz with millie!!!

really.. nothing worthy of blogging on nowadays.
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14:33


Tuesday, September 20, 2005

calculus and my oh-so-incompetent attitude

was doing some revision on calculus when i was hit hard on my head with a smack - literally. things aren't going well!!! i don't freaking understand a single thing i was trying to do. i could only comprehend the most simple way of solving a single differentiation function. that was to bring down the power and m-1. understand? it doesn't matter.

i've slacked enough. 3 weeks. and i've missed out SO MUCH. from today onwards, I am going to work hard at my newly bought treasure - Calculus book!! weee~ it's a bright yellow in color with red words screaming at u. it reads "CALCULUS". ha ha ha.

suddenly, my life seems to meaningful. i am just SO BUSY! lol! i have to keep up with my exercise regime starting from tomorrow, watch and count what i eat, count the number of calories i burn from each workout, count the time needed to get to and from places. i need to work doubly hard at my math. i'm going to dedicate 5 hours each week on math alone, 3 hours a day on banking and finance, 1 hour a day for economics, and 3 hours a week on law of biz organizations. say HELLO to english law!!!! where court of appeal is no longer the highest of courts, but the court of the lords. or was it house of lords. oh well...

yesterday, all my troubles seems so far away
now it looks as if it's come to stay
oh i believe, in yesterday

suddenly, all my homework is all piling up
how i wish i never slacked that day
oh i believe, in yesterday

i can cram although it ain't gonna help anyway
i can practice [damn] i hope, i wont give up math halfway

yesterday, thought of getting a first class honours
that dream seems just so far away
how i believe, in yesterday...
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00:12


Monday, September 19, 2005

fatso.

i like the word "fatso". in a way, people call u fatso. but it sounds just so soothing. it's like "yeah, fat, SO?!" haha nice way of deceiving oneself. yet it all falls into place like that. fat, so?

people say fat people are jovial people. that, i have no comments. we, fatties, may be just so oh friendly and happy to everyone and anyone that people don't often take us seriously. with courage and pride, we take whatever verbal abuses hurled at us - often with a chuckle. a chuckle that pains till our innards. does anyone know?

waking up everyday, we look at the sunshine and smile - today's gonna be a brand new day. we try to look on the positive side of life. everything comes crashing down once we step into reality. where people scrutinize each and every part of our body. humiliate us with those unkind words, i'd really wish they'll grow fat this instant.

there are so many diet and slimming programs out there, claiming they'll zap ur fat FAST. many ignorant people will dig our their hard earned money and dive at such marketing strategies - but really. will fats go away without exercise and proper food? NO.

so, we fatties go the hard way. our unsatiable stomachs have to slowly get used to eating 1/2 a plate of rice and ultimately, no rice, no noodles, no bread. no ice creams, no soft drinks, no cheesecakes, no cakes, no durians. the list goes on forever. some of us just avoid whatever food there is, but did anything work at all? yes of course. but at a really slow rate whereas skinny bones can lose like 1kg a day dieting, maybe.

a slap across our faces! skinny bum comes along and says "damn. i'm so fat!!! am going to job away my kilos." fuckress! she is just 48kg.

all in all, it just ain't easy to lose weight. as much as we would wanna be like jLo - tight hot skirt wrapping around her big round sexy hips, it takes a lot of courage and determination. so people, the moral of this silly chatter is: instead of rubbing salt into the already bleeding wound, there sure is a lot of space for a lot of encouragement.
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15:27


Saturday, September 17, 2005

ha! what "i don't seem to have anyone around me who is having problems". i better smack my mouth for that. i've learnt the true meaning of "watch what you say, it might just come true". it really did.

i opened my eyes wide this morning and yes, i realised that people all around me are facing problems. especially my mum. she's still going through that rough patch which isn't too good for me to disclose... but seeing her so stressed up really hurts. at her age she should be relaxing, enjoying her retirement. yet something like this has to happen. that's really sad. she's had a hard life. at times i wonder what has she done in her early years or her early life that she deserves such harsh times? throughout her life she's been slugging, thriving, be it in career or for the family. she has done so much - and yet... why is her life so jinxed??!!!!! i don't wanna repeat what television subtitles always write "why is heaven so unfair". i don't think heaven is unfair.. it's just that some people are borned into a certain way of life. nothing can change it. like how some assholes can be filthy rich when they don't do anything productive at all.

meeting jimimi at 2pm later. and i just remembered i have to complete my econs assignment by thursday. and read up on differentiation and deriatives by tuesday before math class. i think i need a calculus book. just spent $60 on financial market book.. and bought a new book: Anne Frank!! been reading about it so long. it's such a shame i found it only now. laters~
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13:16


Tuesday, September 13, 2005

happy birthday, erick =)

but too bad. i don't think u'll even see this. unless God's setting up a miracle for the both of us.

i can't believe 3 years of friendship is just gone in a flush. can you really forget me just like that? just because u had to go after ur girl of ur dreams, daphne? i know that pretty girl. but the other girls she hang around with - were they really worth it? that u must change in order to be viewed as "cool"? you are cool by yourself. why did you have to change?

after you quit band, the section have never been the same again. neither was band practice. where is the erick siao we all knew? she's gone. gone to an unseen world. how could u just drift away from all of us just by the snap of a finger? are you really so unfeeling?

at times i've seen you in the city, at cheers even.. there's nothing you can do that will hide your excitement. yet i know you're trying to maintain your cool appearance. you think you can ever fool me? you can fool the whole world but not me. you tried so hard to excel in ur studies, to quit smoking, to get away from russell even. all of us were behind you, encouraging you. and all we got - was you isolating us.

i've never blamed you for leaving us out of your life. to each his own. i'm just distressed to find that you've changed - a full turn - rumours of your behaviour makes me cluck my tongue in shame. but i know.... you're just dying to gain acceptance. but that was gave way to the way you are now.

anyway... you've turned 20 now. hope i'm the last person to wish u that.... and please, be WEIPING again =)
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23:59


Monday, September 12, 2005

second chances

we always claim "it's alright to make mistakes. at least we learn from them." and we keep making mistakes, thinking it's alright. we'll just make sure we wont commit the same mistake anymore. more often than not, even if we give ourself second chances, it doesn't mean that people will do the same to you.
in the real world, everything has to be" DO IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME ". one mistake and [bang] u're out of the game. does second chances come into the picture at all? no. oh well, probably it depends a lot on one's luck.
one can try so hard to convince people that he is able to do something. but no one bothers, because of that silly little mistake he did eons ago.
people can give another person many many chances, and yet he does nothing to change the way he is. how ironic life is.

i had yet another 2 opportunities to create ASP sites. and damn. asp has never been so tough. what problems do i face, u multimedia graduates ask. oh well, it's a minor problem which i have never faced before. i can't remember the last time when i did dynamic websites using dsn on my machine - what IIS version was it - apparently, i installed IIS on my laptop and that was IIS5.1. i can't seem to view dynamic pages. it returns an error page stating something about ODBC, Ole DB and something about permissions. wtf? Did research and did whatever i should... but to no avail. at the last resort, i wanted to upload to this web server. someone changed the password. (no, i didn't crash into someone else's ftp site. it's my relative's) things are just not going right.... when will i be able to resolve this issue? i don't know. shucks. i'm feeling so stressed up i can hardly breathe now. 2 websites. 2 websites!!! and i wonder how the photoshoot @ henry's will be later. after the photos are done, more pressure will be on me to develop the website quickly. blistering barnicles.

oh... damn. i have like... 2 weeks to do my Principles of Banking and Finance assignment. havent even got myself started. and that math question is still waiting. shit..... i better stop procrastinating. i need a timetable!!!
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10:22


Saturday, September 10, 2005

mumsy, what seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise

i'm sincerely and quietly praying for you, hoping that u'll briskly find your way out of this rough patch in life.. i just hate myself for not being able to do anything for you. i guess, the only thing i can do is just give you my total moral support. hang on in there, be strong. we'll always be here for you.

abba is so smart. "money money money, is your honey". how true. no money = no honey. u can buy the world with money. buy away most sorrows. without money, we are nothing. we are losers.

with money, these are the things we can do:


buy a diamond


indulge in secret fantasies


buy and throw watever junk the world has in store for you


buy high-end cakes from The Patissier


buy presents


indulge in good food @ juju




make a good bunch of friends happy, fine dining. vegetarian or not.


enjoy the best chocolate cake in the world

but ultimately...




true friendship can never be bought =)
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Sunday, September 04, 2005

today's the last day of work and i'm just SO ELATED that it's coming to an end. Can you imagine standing for like 11 hours only sitting during lunch time and toilet break(5-10 mins)??!! And you have to just KEEP TALKING non stop... and they're running out of water. Need to bring our own bottle today. Yucks.

yesterday wasn't so bad. but you know, i don't really like working for this company. firstly, part timers are given second class treatment. the staff are like "aiya, PART TIMERS only mah.... PART TIMERS come already we come for wat." it's like... part timers are really given the label "Part Timers". that's really stupid.
and i heard from jolene ( a full time staff who treats me differently cos I'm a PART TIMER now) that there's this assistant sup who sucks big time. and that guy - i never liked him from the start. he's a chao buaya and he thinks he's very handsome. YUCKS. he's also very annoying and lame. he asked me how many did i sell last nite and i said "er" which means two la...... wrong choice of verb, but still!!! he said "wah.. i see you i very hungry leh" i was like... go to hell. i walked away. then he told me to go get the milk bottle from the baby opposite. STUPID ASSHOLE. i tell u ah... people who sell PCs Full time arh.. be it funan or sim lim, i think 90% are bastards, chao ah bengs and lians, sex deprived, hormones raging, inethical morons.

feeling damn lethargic. my whole body's aching and it feels damn HoT. not because i'm horny. probably because i've been overworking?? Lol. OVERWORKING!!!
better go bathe now.. or i'll be late. but again.... i feel like being late.
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09:04


Saturday, September 03, 2005

when you work, you are surrounded by Foes

i'm really dishearted that this is really a "man-eat-man" world. there isn't any slight consideration when you're interacting with people around you - when u are after a specific shared goal. you do whatever you can to outdo the person beside you.

it's funny you know.. and annoying. all of us are selling the same products, yet different companies. of course, the other company is our competitor and we aren't suppose to talk to them or anythin. but is it really necessary to act like we are in a battlefield, taking opposing sides of the game? must it really be so brutal? come on.. it's only a job. why make it so difficult?
the worst is when you own men fight with you over a customer. shouldn't we all practice courtesy? if the customer is mine, just let go. but NO! this fucking asshole actually STOLE my customer away. i approached him first.. then he just shoves the catalogue into that guy's face and talked to him.
ASSHOLE!!! I THINK U SHOULD BE DISFIGURED. WHY DID GOD GIVE YOU SUCH A NICE FACE FOR? UR CHARACTER IS LIKE SHIT. YOU SHOULD BE SHAPED AND COLORED AND SMELLED LIKE SHIT!

i really hate working there sometimes. but i love talking to customers... they act as a path for relieving my stress as i can just blabber non stop... without thinking about the possibility that they might backstab me. damn.. guys are all bastards. except for a few of course.. oh well....... hopefully i can clinch a number of deals today.....
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09:00


Thursday, September 01, 2005

wee full of joy

these few days have been pots of joy. i've been enjoying and playing for most parts of the days. on tuesday, i skipped mathematics lecture totally. i had diarrhea. the consequences of eating way too many prunes. i tell u peeps, 3 prunes a day is the max. no more than that. hohoho...
anyway. i went to meet cheng for BaDmInToN!!! haha.. with his 2 cousins. it's damn fun.... we were serving like nobody's business. once we see a shuttlecock, we serve. especially his cousin, ivan. he's crazy. at first we were pretty "competitive", trying to outdo each side. after 30 mins, we got tired. we didn't even bother to chase the "cock". rather, we did chase, but it was with little strength and enthusiasm. haha... luckily it was only an hour. and i didn't think badminton would make me sweat so much. good time, good workout... but my muscles are aching.

yesterday was my last day of work at the shop. sob sob. shant go on. but i worked till 1am last nite!!!!! tiring. got up at 7am today.... when i was suppose to do so at 6:30. overslept and got to school late. but econs today was pretty easy. i'm amazed i didn't fall asleep halfway.

met siti, claire, sharifah, shihan and stephanie today to celebrate siti's birthday. my god. steph actually wished me happy bday but i thought she was wishing siti. god i felt like a retard, a snob. u know what i did??? i actually looked away and nudged siti. GOD. i'm really sorry stephanie... if i seemed rude or somethin, please DO forgive me! even though i know you might not read.. can somebody...? haha
the cake they got for siti was really nice... tasted almost close to what the sphogirls gave me... HAHAHA. but it's yummy. i think poor siti ate the cake till she was at the verge of puking. haha.. she ate like... 1/3 or 1/4 of the cake. she was MADE to do so.
i hope she enjoyed the day.... cos i sure as hell did.

alright.. i'm going to play maple story now.. and hopefully sleep soon. working at comex tml! gimme more sales........
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23:18