Tuesday, May 31, 2005
i really hate being sick, having sore throat and fever. but i have this sickening feeling that i'm infected by some kinda bad bacteria that my immune system is fighting against. i don't know if i wish my system will get defeated or win the battle.
lately.. i'm feeling so stressed up. not because of anything serious, but because i have no idea what's going on in my mind, and what are the plans laid out for me? or realistically.. i don't have any plans laid down for my future. in my last post i cited that i was torn between two choices - marketing and finance. but i guess.. u could all see that i was going towards finance. yes, i finally managed to convince myself that finance is exciting and marketing is boring. talking to steven about marketing doesn't excite me anymore. it's like PR. it's so
multimedia also. hearing him say he was gonna search for pix to use for his vouchers. goodness gracious. i can't even give out vouchers. even with vouchers.. people wont buy. haiz. back to the main topic. yes. finance. finally.. after weeks of searching, i found this perfect school that offers exactly what i want. it sorta offers all aspects of finance. and that's really cool. i was relieved for a while but i kinda panicked when i got a reply from the officer from the university. she said that the institution offering the course in singapore has with-held the course AT THE MOMENT. what am i to do? such a perfect course.... meets almost all my requirements. i just pray and hope that she's wrong. i'm to the point of so much negativity that i wish i could just sit down in a corner and cry. that's pretty childish, but it's good relief, really.
recently i've been reading this book. how to prime your cosmic cash pump. i haven't got to the important parts of the book yet. not even halfway there. a quarter, in fact. but the experience have been really uplifting. it's given some really good insights on life. one of the most valuable lesson highlighted by the author.. was that we should always believe in things that we want to happen. and it will come to u gradually. at times, it's true. it's just like karma. whatever you send out to the universe, eg. bad deeds, it will come back to you amplified. people will do that to you. then it's never ending. only if we can let go of our negative feelings, our grudges, then can we get on with life and achieve the things we want. it's all easy to say.. but gawdarn difficult to carry out. i need to cleanse my brain man... so much negativity, it ain't bringing much benefits to the people around me.. and myself. ever since i've been rejected by local universities..
yes, i daresay it out loud.. i've been feeling very fiery. throwing temper at everyone.. mainly targeting those close to me, like my mum.... and cheng... i feel sorry.. but i must really try to control my temper. it's not my usual self. it's as if i've gone back to my old ways. even my old terrible habits are coming back.. i musn't be depressed no more. see how all those thoughts are affecting me in a negative way??!!
i'm going to meditate tonight. dispell all the bad auras, bring in new fresh positive energies.
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19:03
Saturday, May 28, 2005
jump.jump.jumpboy i should just jump down the buildin or somethin. so my heart will stop jumping. i've been feeling so gudamn jumpy of late. i've come to terms that i'll NOT get into SMU. i don't even know if we can appeal.. but well.. my mum has been bugging me to try.
but you know, i've been looking around for alternatives, for example, private universities. what do i look for in a course?? well.. first i look at my future. i want big money. and what helps me make big money? the most obvious answers i can think of, is to work in a bank, or start my own business. the latter seems highly impossible without that much needed capital. it has got to be at least a 5 digit number!!! gosh! money drives me, ultimately ;) money face. my dad calls me. well.. wat to do? we all live in a materialistic world. and i gotta pia first before i get kicked out of the house by my husband. he shall not have the chance to see me slog in misery as a divorcee.
oh well.. another facet of this major crisis i'm stuck in... is what is more important.. a course which acts as a ticket to the banking world, or a course which i'll enjoy?
i keep asking myself, "what are my interests." seriously, i don't know. i seem to like everything and i think i take interest in anything as long as i tell myself i like it. so i can begin to love something that i so hate. i don't know how is that possible.. but i can do it. dammit.
marketing and finance or just full finance course???
the bright future of being a private banker or financial officer... or some portfolio manager. oh boy. look at the salary figure!!!! ahha... first, i have to overcome my fear of percentages, probability, graphs and economics. i think smu must have declined my application cos they saw a big fat D on my result slip. haiz.
marketing??? it seems pretty fun.. you get to come out with promotional tactics, think of pricing strategies bla bla.. but somehow.. finance seems more exciting. and who knows one day i might join wanni in her quest? but i'd wanna specialise in investments. hohoho~
and it burns down to a very important question. should i wait for the next intake for smu??? my aunt says people with working experiences gain an edge over others. but by then i'll be 21!!! and by the time i graduate, i'll be 25. OLD HAG! how to survive sia....
i'm so tempted to get a private degree. it only takes like... 1-2 years. very tempting right? by the time i get my degree... people are still studying. hoho. but it all depends on my employer. see if he discriminates private degrees. i hope not. kns. aiya. how how how???
WO HAO FAN AH damn singapore's system. qualifications really matter that much mah??!!!! (yes, i bloody know it fucking fucking does) REALITY HIT ME FAST!!! (it's already sunken into me. gudamn it) i'm really on the verge of breaking out. pimples. argh!!!!!!!
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18:01
Thursday, May 26, 2005
wat lies aheadwith every second ticking by, my heart beats faster. dammit. does no news mean good news? or does no news mean... GIVE UP?
i havent got any letter from smu. but if i'm rejected, don't they have to send a letter to me?? telling me that I AM REJECTED??
no, i havent got anything. then again, what's the matter with smu? they're filing the acceptance of offers already. so i should give up? i don't wanna give up, i dont feel like giving up.
i went to the australian immigration's website. if i wanna work there, i need to have a degree in which i have finished 4 years of studies, or 2-3 years of working experience. dammit. how? all the private degrees i've seen takes less than 2 years. so fast. good if i wanna continue working in singapore. but i dont want. i wanna go everywhere, anywhere!!! i'm not sick of singapore, but i wanna have more exposure. exposure to all of the earth's facets, exposure to all cultures. be a missionary arh? haiz. i begin to question myself - again- why am i here, and what is my purpose in life? i don't know. i hate being in this state of confusion. SERIOUSLY. what state am i in? a state of denial, damnation. i don't wanna be condemned in this... posh prison cell that allows me to go hom at 7:45 in the evening!!!!!
are private degrees reliable at all???
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12:16
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
oh no... i might sound really blunt here, but..... i feel disgraceful.
they've decided to send our work for a competition. though i havent seen or heard the final product... the whole process was a total failure. there are so many flaws, i don't think it should be publicly heard, allowing our piece of shit work to be scrutinized. frankly speaking...... i myself cant bring myself to listen to it. what more the judges?
i wasn't totally against the idea, nor was i for the idea. but i'm not one who wants to submit sub standard work for a competition. i seek perfection in such things. and it's not even near HALF PERFECT. i feel really bad now.
but to take things on the lighter side.. just let it be. even if it gets rejected, no harm done. they'll just throw the whole damn disc away. and it will be a memory, a keepsake that we will always remember and to think back about those times, especially when nigel took so many hours to perfect things. but!!!! *shhh*
oh well... i might just as well continue slacking at work. slacking at work doesn't sound right. but I AM ACTUALLY DOING JUST THAT. l.o.l. damn. and i don't know what time is clara coming. is she coming at all??!!! i miss her!!! siti is coming to visit me too!!!
do u actually believe in karma? i do. what goes around comes around, like what i always tell myself. i do hope something terrible will befall that scumbag. horny-disgusting-old-man-with-the-wilted-and-disfunctioned-cok-yet-tries-to-take-pills-to-stay-erected-bastard. take care, old man. i hope u die peacefully.
u one big piece of lardu think u r so smartcome n smell my fartu'll find e smell so familiarcuz it smells just like ur heartmy mum will slap me if she reads this. she doesn't allow me to curse people. but ma, i'm not cursing. i'm just typing. i didn't recite any sutras / chants after saying those words.
papa's coming back from tanjong pinang today. and i'm suppose to meet cheng... but mum wants me back home. how?? i havent seen him for 3 days, but it feels like a week.
it's gonna be 5th june soon. next week... suppose to have a health checkup with one of the fitness instructors. but i dunno if i could continue asking the manager. he shouldnt be caught up in such a tiny fly like me. i wont be paying him $799 for personal training u know. maybe i'll call up that guy.. i dunno his name. he seems pretty nice.
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11:34
Monday, May 23, 2005
Rotten Lolipop"what i want to do is none of your business".
you have any idea how much that hurts my heart?
being the closest to you with the same surname and blood type, you spat that cruel sentence at me. i know, friends are important. but i hope u will soon realise that your bastardized friends are doomed.
i have always made myself available when you want to talk. i was always there. and i will always be there. even if it's 3 or 5am in the morning, like always.
you're such a let down.
don't u feel guilty at all?? 4 people crying for u, worrying for your safety??
I HOPE U GROW UP FAST.
funny young punks.
"i don't like him lah... so long liao"
but she says.. "virgo loves taurus". and lolipop happens to be a taurus.
and who in their right minds will go all out JUST TO PASS A PRESENT? when u havent met for ages. like, u meet once a year. on his birthday - to pass his present.
doesn't that mean somethin?
kids.
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15:25
Sunday, May 22, 2005
i have a confession to make.
i havent visited gym for a week and i've been overeating.
there she goes again, u say. i've heard her giving up so many times. it's the same thing again. sick and tired of hearing it.yah lor. i'm not a man of my words. i cant stick to what i say. i've got low determination. i cant accomplish things. darn. it's such a chore to climb out of bed at 6am everyday and jog for 1 hour... i can't do it, i can't do it!! RADON, I CAN'T DO IT!!!!!!
You can, Ke Ying, YOU CAN. Just believe in yourself. There are so many people giving you support. And at the same time there are so many people waiting to see you fail yet again. Show it to them. Show the losers your will. Go on. You still have 2 months to prove yourself. 2 months. You can do it, YOU CAN DO IT!!!The flighty me at work again. The Devil and the Angel. The Encourager and the Discourager. To Procrastinate or Not To. I can't fucking make up my mind. like wat xiaocheng says -5/10-
anyways. back to one of my boring facets of life as a 19 year old. old time friend, jimimi called. "killing". i heard that he and carol might be tying the knot soon. hopefully. probably have to wait till he comes out of NS. what a couple. i feel happy for them. and i realise.. suddenly i have friends who are going to get married soon. way too early. *cluck cluck cluck*. as much as i would have liked to find a suitable man and get married to him, i will not seal my youth this way. it'd be no better than imprisoning myself. i think i'm being very unfair to cheng.. oh well. my privy life.
life's funny. like what bran says all the time. sometimes life seems unfair. why do some people get slightly better treatment than others? why do bad people get away with things and yet good people have to take the rap? why are some people richer than those who slog like shit? and this one. why does everyone around me seem to have a good guy to take care of them and not me? ahha... that's not true. but. i get envious.
well watever the case, i believe everything happens for a reason. you sow what you reap. or is it u reap what u sow. -_-". i cant remember. watever it is, all that you give out will come back to you. it's just a matter of time. so when we give out something, like doing something good, we shouldn't keep thinking about when this goodness will come back to us. we'll worry ourselves sick if it bothers us THIS MUCH. so bran... just accept the fact. stop worrying and start living.
so much for my 1 cents worth of one of life's lessons.
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14:18
Thursday, May 19, 2005
so paiseh. finally.. after one month, I AM POSTING UP MY BANGKOK TRIP PICS!!!
btw. lydia can really cook~!! i love ur chicken wings, lydia!!
thai dance outside samran place hotel. for songkran~
the lady who sells green papaya salad
"printed in singapore"
the number of things we bought. this is only the second day.
intermission at chatuchak. half time. ahha...
so many things to buy.. dunno which one to get. and we are just SO DAMN TIRED. this is after the break at the hotel. at chatuchak again.
then we all went crazy..
be it indoors...
or outdoors...
and then, we all went afro with sally's new shades.
tuk tuk
and thailand is SUCH AN ANIMAL PARADISE!!!
my favourite - xiaohei and me!!! a black pomeranian. adjusted the brightness curves. in case he cant be seen. lol..
patpong - bangkok's red light district. but...
pretty cops
see where the petrol goes in from
on the plane home
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12:12
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
"who can i speak to regarding advertising?"
"that would be me."
"and your post is? retail manager?"
"no. sales."
"oh, so who can i speak to? ur marketing department?"
"that would be me also. i'm the sales and marketing manager."
this is a 2-men company. or rather, 3. a big boss and 2 staff. and i am the sales and marketing manager who havent clinched a single sale or launched any marketing promotions. i have not even made any such efforts. so whenever people ask.. "can i speak to the marcom department?" i'll hesitate. but it's a hint of unprofessionalism (if there ever is such a word). and it reflects bad on a company like that. sigh. wat to do. no guide, no nothing.
oh well... i am feeling extremely tired today!!!!! and i'm going to lydia's house for a feast!! she's cooking!!!!! weeee~ this will be the first time i'm tasting her food, other than that cheese omelette she made me eons ago. yum yum. my tummy is growling already. ahhaaa~
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17:43
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
DAM U PEFIN!!!u this chao buayee!!!! ahakz. no lar... pefin is a friend. a great pal indeed. but the irritating thing about her, is she always changes her love interest as quick as lightning. so fast, i always lose count of the number of people she likes.now that Di has got back together with her, Pefin just told me - that she...!!... has got a new target. wah piang. bloody PROMISCOUS!!!! ahaha.. i know lah... Di isn't giving much into the relationship. but... well, i dont know. u are so scandalous that i can't really be bothered to ask u who u really love.it's kinda sickening whenever you go out with this person.. all she talks about is her love life. she doesn't wanna listen to anything else, but talk about her love life. usually, in this particular outing, i am always the listener!!! so is everyone else who has gone out with her. pui~~~ but well, that's usually the case with everyone else in the whole wide world. one talks, one listens. but aiya. irritating lah... and this one. BLOODY FOOL!!!! IF U FEEL SIA SUEY TO GET CAUGHT STANDING BESIDE A FAT ASS, DONT ASK ME OUT ANYMORE LAH!!!pOoOoOoOiIiiIiiIIIiiiIiI.and oh, happy birthday, YIJIN!!!my brother turns 17 today. and he came back at 2am with the smell of... EGGS. his friends threw eggs at him!!! ahha... wang ba dan.that's what u get for wasting durian paste from goodwood park!!!
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15:52
Monday, May 16, 2005
when will you be mine???
looking at the number of rejected university applications, i think i'll only be able to look at u, admire u. and wishful thinking that i will own you one fine day. maybe i'll have to wait till my children grow up. by then, you will be sitting on a neck of wilted, wrinkled, loose skin. you will lose your shine and your nacre will brush again this old, rough, folded neck of mine. you will not look as good as u did years ago when i was still 20. oh, my dear keishi pearls.. i do love you so. i love you so much. so please, please.. come to me. give me a huge windfall and may u just fall around my neck.
come what may.. i hope no one every buys you. for you only look good on me. we both know we suit each other, and that we are made for each other. Please, bring me a job that pays me a 4 digit salary, with the thousands place starting with the number 3. keishi, keishi i do love you so. i know how hard it is to produce a rarity like you from the gold lipped margarferita. so come, fall on me, fall on me!!!!! or better still, bring me my man on the white horse. no lah. i dont really wanna depend on man.
oh well. the bottom line is. you are mine. don't stray from me. wait for me, my love.
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18:48
my hopes are dashed
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16:20
Friday, May 13, 2005
Colours By The Bay, Anyone?hey noe wat.. i purchased this card. colors by the bay card that gives 10% discount on selected restaurants. but i'm worried if i'm suddenly billed more. ahha... but oh well, i've got vouchers which need to be used by 30th september 2005. so, dinner dates, anyone??
you don't need to spend a lot on a meal, from what i can see in these vouchers. should be able to have a fulfilling meal with $15. so.. come on!!!!! call me arh..
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15:52
suddenly, i have so many things that i want. it's not a need.. but an urgency to satisfy my thirst for all things beautiful - gems. to satisfy my materialism. it doesn't help to work in a world class hotel and to look at everyone around you - they all carry luxurious branded bags. but i'm not moved. it's just a name. but still, that very item itself carries prestige, gives you priority over others.
two seperate individuals come into your shop. you carry high end products, like LV. one is wearing slippers and shorts. the other carries a prada bag and looks like an rK. which one will you serve?
well, you shouldn't. once, a gentleman and his wife came into the shop. they were both dressed simply. no fashion accessories, no hint of branded labels. only one salesgirl attended to them. she believes firmly in just. everyone around you is your little fortune god, you never know. an hour later, the couple walked out happily with 300,000 worth of jewellery. they then went to LV and swept off a few thousands worth of products. so the next time you talk to someone, always keep in mind that he might just be your little fortune god.
i have to talk about this shop at wisma. MIO Italy. they have very good service. yesterday, chris and i went to that shop. we were just browsing. and so we came across MIO. nice shop with nice accessories. but the price range is usually over 100 dollars. but still.. the salesman invited us in. we were shabbily dressed. i was carrying a big runaway backpack and chris was in slippers.
"hello! want come in see??"
"price range how much?"
"around 100 and above arh..."
"so expensive arh.. i cant afford to see leh"
"don't worry lah.. we'll find something for you. anyway, it doesn't hurt to see, right? come!!!"
and so.. we were served. and i'm very very happy with their service. i walked out with a very nice accessory. something that's nice.. and fits my pocket nicely.
why i'm so overwhelmed by them, is simply because i feel the standard of service in singapore is deteriorating.
i am in a foul mood these days. i dont understand why does everyone in my family make a fuss out of nothing. the things i do are so trivial, but they have to make things so difficult. they treat me like i'm still 13. in fact i realised, i'll always stay that way in their hearts.
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12:58
Thursday, May 12, 2005
i'm a law abiding citizeni just love law enforcers. i had a good time ogling at police officers and bodyguard today. there's this huge group of important people at the hotel.. and apparently... they arrived in no less than 5 mercedes. the singh guard was also asked to open doors.. so... it should be some big event involving important people, governing bodies from all over the world, for there were chinese, ang mohs, indians of all shapes, colors and sizes.
i had a brush with the law today.
well, no. not a
brush with the law. all i did was just to
infuriate one or many of the law enforcers. the story goes a long way. and this blunder.. i believe, was either due to my sense of hearing, or that customer service from pacific internet was trying to get me into trouble.
i was suppose to fax her a number. and apparently.... i tried faxing 5 times then it dawned on me that it might probably be a fax cum telephone number.
so... on the 6th time.
"hello, is this pacnet?""no. this is tanglin police station. do not call again. PLEASE HUH."oh boy. he really did sound extremely angry. well frankly speaking, WHO WOULDN'T??? like prank calls. but i didn't do it on purpose!!!
i remember when i was young i liked to call 999 and put down the phone. until there was once.... someone called back and said "have u been calling 999? please stop doing that or i will call police come and catch u". my parents were so mad at me. and it's damn scary.
come to think of it..... it's funny when people you know get into the police force. when they're in their uniform... people tend to get stcared of them, even try to act "guai" in front of them. but what u never know is that.... these policemen are actually normal people, like you and me. it's psychology huh.. why we get so afraid.
and i am embarassed to admit that i'm hell of a fucking scaredy cat.
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16:28
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
WANTENG + WANNI = WEEVILS.you both are huai dans!!! go gelare cafe never ask me go. we waited for 3 years hor. hrmph. but it's alright. i'm still sticking to my no ice cream diet. just wait, just wait. i shan't talk to taitais.
lolx. ke ying is damn lame, damn childish. yah.. i know.
how?? how do i write better essays? i know for certain my prose is like... OH PUH-LEASE. PROSE?? poof. i mean.... my sentence construction is still like secondary 1 standard. it havent advanced since i left secondary school.. i look at some of my friends' blog entries and i feel like crying. i sound extremely kiddish... whining this and that. but aiya........ -_-" wat to do.... dumb ass is like that. wat did i do in secondary school that made me write the way i wrote???? how did i even manage to remember new words and meanings? i can't remember.
oh well.... i'm not going to HongKong. mummy's going with popo. popo will be so happy... cos she'll be seeing her beloved son and that little impish grandchild. and.. this will be my mum's best holiday. she havent taken any leave for the past year. poor thing. this holiday.. she deserves it. although she only gets 2 days off work. i'll be manning the shop with my mum's friend. dun think will have sales lah... haha. not that i'm cursing the shop or anythin... but... so little people walk around here. everyone's complaining about the lack of human traffic here. no hunks to drool over also. that's the saddest part. but again... even if i was at orchard road.... i'll probably be saying the same thing. ultimately... looks are not everything.
mum gave me the nod today. uh. she approves my proposal - to close the shop 30 mins earlier on saturday. cos of the wedding dinner i'll be attending. but it'll still be quite late.. better than nothing.
okay lah... dun wanna be so cheong hei le....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIMIMI!!!!!"jeremy say!""say wat?""say kim pow!""yah? mrs lai u call me?""jeremy say.. dont make me sey u then u know, try to act funny."oh those were the days...jimimi i miss u!!
i miss the "coffee talk group"...
lydia, lorraine, baobao, jimimi, bendicok. oh i miss u all so much..
i miss the "nerd club"...
joey, cedric, kok, junyang, boyfren..
lydia dia dia... i miss ur cheese omelette!!!!!
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16:39
Monday, May 09, 2005
bring it on500 calories = 50 mins.1000 calories = 1 hr 40 mins.i went to the gym just now. yes.. i did the x trainer for 50 mins. i didn't go very fast... but well, at least i accomplished my goal of 500 calories lah. jia you jia you... just need to keep it like that. next week i'll go 700 calories. then hopefully by june i'll be doing 1000 calories each session. OH YEAH!!!
okay.. on the way to the gym, guess who i saw, wanteng?? I SAW DESMOND KOH. then i was so tempted to ask him,"hey, did u find your addidas swimming trunks?" i keep thinking it's
addidas underwear. no lah, i'm not sick. so.. naturally.. when i see produxn crew.. i'll think of
Wu Lao Die (CS Goh).. then.. i think i saw him. was at the traffic light. then... i just turned when i heard this guy speaking hokkien. he sounded so much like goh. then i looked. he also stopped talking and looked lah. but.... i wanted to say "AH GOH AH???".. but wait. his hair.. it's like.. copper red??? chesnut copper red???? quite long hair.. like ekin cheng kinda length... and... wearing track pants and oversized tshirt??!!! look SO DIFFERENT from the other times i've seen him. but.. eyes... seem to say "where have i seen u before". oh well.. too late. green light. WALK.
should i or should i not??
my uncle invited the whole family to go to hongkong. from 14th to 16th.. if i go, i'll be missing claire and sharifa's bday and also the wedding. both on the same day mah. i'm not really keen on going... cos hongkong doesn't captivate me. i just wanna see the little imp - xiao huixin-. but mumsy wants me to go. uh.. i'll just.. go next time lor.. haha.. i dont think my other uncle and aunt can make it also. it's so sudden, so fast. always like that.
i remember last time.. in secondary school, or in poly. only give me like a week's notice. "ke ying, get ready. we going to italy next week." i was like.. "WTF?". den another occassion i feel like killing myself was.. "ke ying, come with me to germany on thursday." that day was monday. CRAZY people. businessmen are always like that, my mum says. but they are so disorganized man. kns...
*pound my chest*
congratulations claire and zeren. u've come a long way~
zeren, if u're readin...
I DON'T CARE, U MUST KISS CLAIRE FULL ON THE MOUTH ON SATURDAY!!!!! =P
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13:14
Sunday, May 08, 2005
oh i want u, i want u!!!!
lol.. IF ONLY. it's been a day, but his face still appears in my mind. fresh and clear, just like he's just in front of me.
the boy, or should i say, the gentleman i'm talking about, is this candidate who was sitting in the same row as me during SAT. my goodness. he is so cute. hahahahahahaha!!!!!
shall describe him. firstly, what captivated me, was his cheeks. rosy cheeks on a flawless skin. oh well, from that distance, it looked perfect. okay.. and nice eyes. and a really sexy little beard. and he's taller than me. aiya.. watever.
he actually came in just behind me. he shuda be the one sitting next to me, not some bitchy girl who kept giving me sideway glances. arse. and the girl who sat beside mr hotty... was a coco lee lookalike. haha.. so uhm. good combi??? but i'm jealous. oh no, i'm envious. but well, if i were to sit beside him, i'll probably get mistaken for cheating.... cos i'll keep looking his way.
okay.. the best part was on the mrt. he was just opposite me, and NO, i did not stalk him. in fact he was behind me all the time. haha.. okay.. so i kept stealing glances at him. and u noe wat.. HE DISCOVERED!!!! and he smiled. but it's like that kind "silly girl" smile, if u get what i mean. he musta thought i'm spaz or something. so.. to hide my embarassment, i called my friend to chat.... so that uhm.... it will like help me cover my ultimate motive - to look at him. but sadly he got off a stop later.
oh, when will i see him again??!!!! pengz.
no lah, i'm not crazy yet.
happy mother's day!!!!! today crystal was really cute. for the first time in my life, she proved that she's quite smart. she got locked out of the house for quite a long time today. mumsy was chattin with the neighbour and that dog must have sneaked out at that time. so mummy didn't notice and closed the door. after a long time, like... probably 30 mins... she heard crystal's barks. so she shouted for her to shut up. u know how persistent their barks are sometimes..
alrite.. but that girl continued. then.. mum heard soft banging noises on the door. LOL. crystal was using her paws to knock on the door and barking at the same time. SMART DOG!!! i love her even more!!!
Love, what I feel, is all around today.
Dreamed a PuRpLe
DrEaM
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23:46
Friday, May 06, 2005
kill mei think i'm better off dead, judging from the results of section 1 and 2 of my SAT mock test. okay. section one was the English part. i got 12 out of 28. i failed. lol.. i remember struggling for it. cos it was so long, so windy, it's MENTALLY straining. and i didnt have enough time at all. and this was only section 1. the later sections are more difficult. so how can i expect to pass with a good aggregate at all? i have like a few hundred new words to learn. and.... i hardly know ANY of them.
we all know that "affected" means, well, affected. but it has another meaning. i learnt it the day before, but i forgot. fucking hell. dammit. i'm getting just so frustrated.
alright.. for my maths, i did it in 20 mins. had 5 mins to play. but the later sections will ultimately kill me also. fuck.
and... u noe wat... the whole paper is around 3.5 hours. probably including the mini breaks (if there is any at all). i might go bonkers. okay.. i'll sleep at 8pm tonite. IF ONLY. i havent read any of the words i'm suppose to go through yet. argh~~~~~
anyone knows what size gym balls should i buy?? 45, 65 or 75??
and.. i surfed on friendster just now. i noticed two of my classmates.. ZEREN and CLAIRE.. their marital status is.. "In a Relationship". and so i wonder ;) claire.... is it?? really??!!!! lol...
Dreamed a PuRpLe
DrEaM
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16:04
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
wOoOoO~~
noe wat?? THE CHARMING BLUE EYED GENTLEMAN CAME BACK TO GET THE PEARLS!!
and his wife loves it.
man.. he is just such a sweetie pie. how i wish my future husband will be so sweet also. i want what he also buy for me. LOL.
or... if he doesn't. i'll just buy it myself lah. kns.
life is funny sometimes isn't it. sometimes we don't even know why we are here for. don't know why we even have to eat when at the end of the day we still need to excrete out everythin. well, not everything. but something has to come out rite? then we need to spend money to see doctor when u're sick and so on. life is funny..
okay. my whole body is aching now. had a gruelling 1.5 hour gym session yesterday. nazir really grilled me.. can u imagine doing exercise NON STOP for 1 hour??!!!!! okay.. so wat we did was. firstly.. 5 mins of x trainer. then.. 50 reps of half squatting with gym ball. 50 reps of inner thigh exercise. 50 reps of dumb bells. 50 reps of that elastic band. 50 reps of half squatting without gym ball. 50 reps of crunches on gym ball. then 10 mins of x trainer. NON STOP. my knees went weak. aiya... he noes i got weak knees... but wah lao. it's hellish. if i'd known he'd be so crazy... i wont tell him i want him to be fierce. he kept asking me "am i tough?" den spasticly, i told him "yah.. ur muscles look tough".... -_-" he said "i mean my training".
at first i told him "okay lah.. still can tahan". after that.. he put me through all that 50 reps of exercises. den he asked me again. "am i tough".. i stared at him for a very long time. "DAMN TOUGH." then he said "good".. with a stupid grin. sadist.
we spent 30 mins analyzing my health.. (if u were wondering what happened to 30 mins, since i mentioned 90 mins). yah.. and noe wat??!!!!! i got 38% of body fats. it's disgusting. when i found out.. i visualized this huge huge lump of fat "jellying" on the table. lol... SICK!!!
i wan jian fei i wan jian fei.
hey, the offer still stands for people who wanna join fitness first HUH!!!!!
join and u'll get free group classes like bodyjam(hip hop , dance), bodycombat(kick boxing, bla bla), pilates, yoga, and so on. haha... join la, join la.. den got people pei me go gym. yipee~~
okie.. better shut up.
EH S GIRLS ARH!!! tomorrow ON hor!!! i da bao xiao bao leh.. dun make me bring for nothing huh.
my english is bad, yes, i know it.
Dreamed a PuRpLe
DrEaM
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15:32
Monday, May 02, 2005
TOLONG TOLONG!!!!!
Dear God.
Dear Universal God.
Dear God of the Heavens.
Dear God of all Earths.
Dear God of the Seven Seas.
Please make that elderly man with the gorgeous blue eyes and his wonderful wife come back for that strand of 18mm pearls!!!!! oh god.. please, please, please...
Dreamed a PuRpLe
DrEaM
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14:36
