Wednesday, October 26, 2005
discovering and identifyingthis is specially for those who've just graduated, particularly, in a course called Multimedia.
How vast that subject is. fret not, it's just as general as business. i think we're probably better off than business grads. if we do not take any specialization. i wind back to the time where i've just graduated. everyday, i'll be scratching my head "what do i do in the future?" yes, multimedia. sounds godamn good in the ears of the ignorant. what i mean by ignorant, youngsters. those who really think multimedia is a damn cool word (like what it was to me back then).
what do we, multimedia grads do? oh well... it's pretty easy. yet pretty tough. do you knwo what's a salad? take a bowl. throw in video shooting and editing. throw in java and dbms. throw in some pinches of audio production/post production. throw in web design, flash and director. what else is there to throw in? oh well.... it's suppose to taste like. different colors of vegetables. can you actually differentiate between a lettuce and say..... radish? wait. i mean that veg with maroon leaves. what veg is that? oh never mind. i'm just tryin to say... we're good in everything and we can also be good in nothing. that's because our skills are so diversified we don't have a goal. we don't have a specialization. unfortunately, most of us chose to "specialize" on the more creative side of entertainment - media. yes.. media consists of most importantly, video and audio. then there are the less "media" type.. like websites and graphics. though it's still very media. lol what am i saying. anyway.... from these 4 we have to choose one of them. here comes the difficult part. BLOODY HELL!!! we love all of these four. ok.. maybe we choose to throw away the website specialization cos it contains programming. we're left with video, audio and graphics. only the best people survive, in this game. or we gotta have the right connections. so well... like wat EmPT said... we have to market ourselves. else.. choose something we really really like and go polish that skill. but what we're taught are really the basics. it takes years to prefect that skill. so where do we head now? it's passion that leads us to pursue our dreams. where does your passion lay? follow..
oh. that was pointless.. tryin to sound profound. lol... i always can't seem to write an ending.
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22:50
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
sob sob.. my stats class starts next wednesday, in the afternoon. 1:30 - 4:30. in MID NOON!!! good thing is, i can sleep late. bad thing is... i can't go anywhere after lessons. i'll be too tired.
i'm thinking of terminating my gym membership. the fee is too high.. i can't afford it anymore!!! boohoohoo... but you know what i like best about this gym, other than the fees? i don't need to bring extra clothes, towel, toiletries. and there's even a swimming pool. which other clubs don't offer. and what's more, i saved initial entrance fees of 500.... now no more. sob. but we should stop acting rich when we are in fact not rich, ain't it? oh well.... 5 years down the road, i'll go back. should i change to planet then? but daniel's leaving planet... then i go there for wat. hm......
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11:50
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
customer service shit.tell me, what is seriously wrong with customer service in singapore these days? other than not smiling when you enter the shop and ignoring you when u're asking a question, they suck at tele-communicating.
i called this courier company.. this company has put up lots of commercials on tv, in which their commercials are all very tacky and is inscribed deep in your brain. anyway, i asked them for their rates. before i even finished my question, the girls (i called twice) said,"please check our website at www.xxxxx.com.sg/rates" fuck shit. know what? the page is INVALID. there ain't such a page. what's wrong with these people. and my boss called... same response. and she aint one who can tolerate bad service. she said "you don't even wanna listen to what i have to say. in that case, i won't wanna tlak to you." and that girl on the other line hung up the phone. oh boy... i really hate such people.
i called this airline service.. and it's suppose to be a service line catered for the previledged customers. because i don't have any details and i was to help my mum get some details... i told her i didn't have any details. and she kinda thought i was stupid or somethin. she didn't even bother to look for other details like maybe my membership number. SHE DID NOT EVEN BOTHER! that's really atrocious, i dare say. rejecting whatever help she would have been able to give me. she was speaking in a really frustrated tone - she sounded like she wanted to pick up a fight. i had to tell her " i don't have any information. but can't you just check from my membership or whatever?" then she just checked. brainless bitch. they say when you don't wanna help, you will not do anything that will help. it's god damn true.
and i hate to state the fact that all 4 of the above are malays. something to comfort myself - an hungry man is an angry man. but of course... the courier service thing didn't happen during the fasting month. serious. i've never come across any chinese who speaks irritably on service hotlines. of course i've came across friendly malay customer service officers, like the one at UPS. i was new.. and she didn't mind bringing me through the procedures. she did it really patiently. i asked lots of questions. and she didn't sound irritate a single bit. why can't they just be courteous, ever so willing to help and all? CAN'T THEY BE PATIENT??!!! not everyone is familiar with everything. there are bound to be first timers. why cant they just reach out and guide that person? isn't that what service is all about? i can't help but shake my head. i am truly disappointed.
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10:22
Sunday, October 16, 2005
aww why did i even allow myself to fall into this silly state of desolation?
i feel so much in despair. i feel so bitter. as bitter as cL is to her busy life albeit her love for all things creative. she is bitter!!!
to a certain extent, her bitterness has spread to me. not that she said some nasty things to me. i just feel.. she's really bitter. her words are harsh and cold. and i can not stand talking to her this morning. i wanted to shun away from her. away from her bitterness.
i despise mankind. i loathe being born into my family. i hate my maid. i wish to throw food at everyone, stomp on food, vomit on people. i am sinful. i am a disgraceful sinner who wastes food and a glutton so to speak.
no one understands. not even my stinking brother whom i've always looked upon for solace. not even the best mum in the world understands. she doesn't understand. no one does. i hate my maid for laughing behind my back when i'm doing everything alone. fuck them.
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20:14
Thursday, October 13, 2005
//[i_'heart'_u]\
was on the bus.. goin home. and daniel ong played Thubthumping (if that's how u spell it and even pronounce it) by... chumbawamba(if i'm even right). it reminded me so much of the kids at sharmini's jazz class. those little devils... and well, it reminded me to - them.
cL, xm, and the two wans. i miss them terribly... it's been months since we all last met..
had econs lecture this morning. and ting didn't seem to teach as enthusiastically. he was a little off track, i felt. not as in topic wise.. but not normal of him to teach that way. shows that he was gettin a little bored maybe. yeah.. and my mind drifted to what rahim said. "everyone can be a teacher"
i agree...
Everyone can be a teacher;
Anyone can fail as a teacher.
doesn't that jeapordise our education? having teachers who can learn how to be a teacher, yet fail at being a teacher? it's an irony. i bet most people who go into NIE don't like to teach. or at least, teaching has never ever crossed their minds - until they got rejected from local universities. so they just enroll into NIE just cos it's a joint programme with NTU? that's what i think... not necessarily true. but from what i see, it usually is the case.
Anyone with a diploma can teach at ITE. easy money. stand around and talk nonsense probably. and anyone with a Degree can teach at polytechnics. what you get.. are people like *i won't mention. but there's a few eminent characters* we don't learn anything. is that good? so that we don't even get the chance to get spoonfed? we have to learn everything by ourselves? is that a better way to learn, actualy? and does that really lead to creative thinking?
i had this little debate with dave on msn quite a while ago. about how southeast asia aren't creative. we were comparing models in thailand and singapore, since he was residing in thailand. i remember a few people saying thailand is a great place that develops creative talents. and encourages media development (creative industries) - but dave thinks otherwise. he thinks thailand kids are very spoonfed. information needs to be presented straight in their faces. but again i remember seeing textbooks used in singapore being sold in thailand's bookstores - oh, so their system is modelled after sg's education system? i didn't think singapore was a creative country in the past, when i was younger. but as i got older, i asked myself "how do you define creative". dave asked me that. i couldn't answer. the conversation turned silly after that. he said "u can't answer cos u aren't imaginative".. and we went on to talk about the EIC takin over south east asia and the commonwealth countries. probably why we're so controlled and "unimaginative" and "uncreative" was because we were a british colony. nah.. of course not. but that's beyond. haha...
things are good at school other than balding over calculus. am close to sharel now.. we can talk quite a lot. and i realised whenever we sit with daniel gay, we always talk about fitness.... food... and today, pornography. and there were 2 lecturers sitting beside us. but.. oh well.. let it go.
so tell me... cl, wn, wt, xm.. when will i see you again? not nov 14 i hope?
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18:19
Saturday, October 08, 2005
letting goi'm rather pissed when i hear egoistic people talking. i have a friend who's jobless for.. God knows how long. yes, he have had previous success in his jobs. like being sales lead, creative director, watsoever. but that's so 90's. it's good to look at your present situation than to hump your back and laugh at whatever is happening to you right now - just because you think everyone you is stupid. oh well, if u're so smart, why can't you get a job? i think it's best to sober up and look what you're missing out, instead of just indulging in those past successes. you'll go nowhere being so proud of what little big things you have done in the past. as i said, it's all in the past. if you don't let go, how ar eyou going to advance?
i've experienced that. i have serious problems letting go, and it's causing me hell lot of problems. i keep looking at "back then". what does "back then" help, really? NOTHING. it only adds to one's misery. it drives one to despair. it relaly doesn't help at all! oh well, i dont know why. this friend means no harm. i just can't stand him at all. well, not at all. 80% of the time. he's too egoistic to be my friend. lol. too egoistic...
anyway, good news. racists bloggers are finally able to get to jail! wanna go to jail? BLOG. nwo i can finally see why less people are blogging anymore. the system is adulterated. a blog is an online journal. and a journal serves as a platform for stupid people like me to vent our frustrations. and now it's became regulated. how cool... but to put racists into jail is probably one of the greatest achievements the government has ever done. of course not. but that should teach bloody racists a lesson - liza, rejoice eh!!!
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15:47
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
howdy ho... math test is in 2.5 hours and i'm only halfway through. okie at least i know how to do logarithms.... and differentiation. haven't touched integration. and i'm helping my boss do logo now... shit. i just love the word procrastination. everywhere, people say "thou shallt not procrastinate" but ofthen that's what everyone is doin. ahha!
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11:00
Monday, October 03, 2005
woopie~ some great things are happening to me life the whole of last week. most elated to find primary school pal ~ JS at the canteen on friday. GOSH! yeah i think i've blogged about her... but qiu says we looked darn dramatic. we stared at each other, then we screamed. it sent good vibes all over!! we were just chatting... that i felt sorry for qiu and js' friend, ling ling. ling ling's cute, btw =) yeah.. so i beckoned her to hurry to get goin. pretty sad to see her leave... but we'll get to eat lunch together on fridays! (hopefully) haha... JS is my good pal since primary 4. used to go to her house EVERYDAY, taking lunch and dinner there.. she says her dad still remembers me. so does my parents! cos her name is just so unique ;-) and her brother jT! aww that late bloomer made it into NTU! smart ass! he used to be a rascal, always playin around in school, makin fun of us all. oh those days... simply elated.
oh did i mention i saw pretty ivy also? xinling says she's a smart one.. and very hardworking!
oh... i saw tim r also.... told him i was doing banking and finance, and he said "eeeeeeeeeee" -_-" how encouraging.
today's my grandma's 91st birthday. i thought she was 88 until she corrected me. wow.. 91!!! i wish she'd live forever... that's impossible. but well, at least after she sees my babies... haha.. or at least my brother's kids.
my aunt did reiki on me just now. it's a funny feeling. strange. when she was transferring energy to my body, i could feel waves... like static on my forehead. but she wasn't touching me. it went down.. to somewhere between my brows then it went up again. she said i had a lot of energy that's causing me to be fat, lazy and unintelligent. ahha... oh well, yeah probably. but i felt clearer and more refreshed after that session. i have a good mind to learn reiki =) such a sacred art.
wanni smsed me yesterday when i was out with g. thanks for ur concern nini.. i appreciate that. luv ya!! she asked if i was stressed up with school work.... oh well, yes i am. i just submitted my finance essay. it squeezed whatever little brain juice i had. haha... oh dad's snoring very loudly. i can hear him from here. oh well... yeah.. finally defeated my laziness albeit being a day past the deadline. keke....
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