Wednesday, December 31, 2003
Well well well... I've fallen ill... It's not only a sickening sore throat now... Sore throat plus cough plus flu plus fever. Damn! Can't go out man... and watching count down on tv is so.. unhappening. But well... I just missed going to Macritchie lar.... haha.. bored.
Friend asked me out cos her friend wanna know me. But i guess she's just makin fun of me lor... that's so damn bad. Hrmph.
ate shabu shabu just now... ate a hell lot.. and ate lotsa soba - damn nice... feel as if i'm in tokyo again. Can't imagine... the trio - my aunt, my mum and myself... great fans of shabu shabu - the japanese steamboat. ate shabu shabu all the way from tokyo to san francisco.. and we're still eatin it in singapore. funny.. and also plum wine. had a glass just now. but this CHOYA is sparkling.. i think.. tasted a lil' gasy. The ones overseas aren't... nicer i guess.. teehee...
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23:20
hoho!!! guess what - i've finally fallen ill.... sado. not ill la.. only having sore throat now. it's damn irritatin... can't clear my throat that often now =(
anyway, the PHS concert yesterday - was great. I never dreamt that PHS would have a concert like that - at the Singapore Conference Hall. And I must say, I'm very proud of the band... well... at least within the school, they kinda prove to be better among the cultural groups. But they're not like THAT good... still have to put in a lot more effort. For every group except the choir, I could feel an air of nervousness around them. The chinese orchestra was very nervous - i guess partly cos they were the first item. I like the guzheng ensemble the best though... their sound is nice and clear.
anyway... had quite a fun time lar... we started the ball rolling. starting shouting names of our band members. the crowd followed suit. haha.... and cheered a lot also. cheer till my sore throat got worst...
after that went for dinner wif joan and 2 others. damn funny... these 3 lil' imps.. so cute they crack the funniest.. (and lamest) jokes. but had a fun time.. only that.. the whole coffee shop was staring at us.. cos we laughed too loud. =P errburr..
okiEe.. today going for their graduation party.. and you know where it's held?? you'll never guess it.... - macritchie reservoir. But they actually found a very beautiful and romantic spot. hehe.. but cos it's a reservoir and someone got raped there, some of the girls don't wanna go - cos they dun wanna get raped. haha... weird.
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11:24
Monday, December 29, 2003
well well... had a fairly plain sailing day today. nothing much actually. was suppose to go bowl with alvin.. but he was puking so we pushed the time to 12pm.. and i had to meet aL at 3.. so alvin decided not to meet lor. i feel kinda bad... and aL's not in a very good mood today... anyway, went ot the library also... borrowed books on jewellery design. kinda excited to read it.. haha.. rather interesting.
esh called me just now... i guess yesterday's blog was damn lame. not lame lar.. i was just feeling emotional. well, ya know.. everyone has her ups and downs in life.. and it's just that yesterday i was feeling damn emotional.
well, he has assured me that we're good friends... and i also constantly tell myself that we should just accept the way we are now. it's better... i don't wanna risk a friendship so perfect. he can really tok cok man... and i love it. haha... hard to accept at first, but now it's getting to me. though i do suffer tinges of pain now and then, i guess it'll soon die off.. when i start school. ahha...
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23:35
Sunday, December 28, 2003
just came back... went to watch lotr 3 again.. this time with my aunt. but i guess i understood the story more this time round. the other day.. i was dozing off. haha.. couldn't really absorb properly. the kid seated behind me had no manners at all. he and his dad. his dad kept shaking his legs and it made me giddy man... i pictured myself standing up and puking all over him saying "sorry, you made me giddy." and the boy was kicking at my chair. idiots. then went to conrad... wanted to eat the ice kachang there... but they only have it during high tea. so went back to suntec's foodcourt.. eat durian chendol. haha.... i guess i kinda enjoyed my quiet evening with my aunt.
sigh...
it's been a week since i knew esh. and within this week... it seems that... there are two parts in our first week of friendship. i loved the first two days the best. it was like... being in love. talking to him was an excitement... we had many things to talk about. i still have those wonderful memories in my mind.. and i don't wanna forget them. and well.... we met on the third day. i won't describe what happened when we met... but it was pleasant and not so pleasant - i felt like punching him at one point.
and... the days after we met... i didn't feel so happy anymore. everything has changed... it seems. though he assured me nothing has. but i know deep down in my heart, something has - i just dunno what.
he used to call me at least once everyday... and loads of sms b4 we met. after that.... i don't get news from him as much anymore. and... it hurts me. i know i'm sounding like a bloody idiot... we're not even lovers. i know. and i know very well that we can't and won't be together.
today he asked me if i loved him or missed him.. i said no. but actually... i do. i just don't wanna admit it. i'm tryin to deceive myself. everytime i'll take out my handphone, wanting to sms him. but i'll end up cancelling the whole message. i don't wanna disturb him. it's awkward.
he broke another promise again... this morning he called. and i was very glad he called... but too bad he gotta go eat breakfast in his dad's new car... sigh.. i was very disappointed. but what to do... anyway, he said,"i'll call you back, don't worry".
and... he didn't. i even skipped my band prac cos i thought he'd call.... and i really wanna hear his voice again. but well... fuck it.
(i skipped band prac also cos i was late tryin to help my mum download something)
sigh.. god.. please let me meet people like esh... so if something happens to our friendship.... dot dot dot
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21:57
just came back from night safari.... haven't been there for like 8-10 years. damn long... was quite fun lar. haha... saw sm lee. very old, but there's like a kind of air around him. like as if he's king that kinda feeling. yup.. and he and his wife are a very loving couple. anyway, we were having a great time at the tiger observing shelter. my aunt was like shouting "tiger! come! eat me! eat me!".. cos she had a bet with another aunt. a bet - the tiger would come near the glass. but the tiger didn't. it was busy sleeping.. haha.. and somebody was actually waiting for the tigers to make love. notti rite... and that person is me lor. gross. they were too tired lar... haha...
okay anyway, when i got home, i got bad news... my bro's gf broke up with him. i feel very sad for him. he was crying... not say crying, but he had tears in his eyes when i pulled up the blanket. he was tryin to hold back his tears... but i could see the pain in his eyes, and it really hurt me. why's my brother so unlucky in love? he's quite handsome... rather charming, and has got 4 gfs before. this is the 4th one. no luck in all of them. 1st one was well.... childish. way too childish and too tomboyish. the 2nd one was a flirt, 3rd as well.. and now the 4th one. it really looked good from the start. these 2 love birds.. always on the phone and sms-ing each other. suddenly, the girl offers a break up. she says her parents found out... and my bro thinks she MIGHT have fallen for another guy.. but well... he's waiting for her. poor guy... he deserves better girls.
sad....
later going for band practice... ya after 4 months of m.i.a.... finally decide to get my lazy butt start workin. haha... though there's a high possibility i won't go again.. cos.. LAZY
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01:22
Saturday, December 27, 2003
okay.. someone's complainin' why din i describe his looks. haha... okay.. this guy is tall, dark and handsome k. got very nice features.. and best of all, he's got a cute ass. nice and round.. firm. just like my bro - yJ. haha... anyway, his name's eSh. ok.. esh, u must be floating now lor... okay anyway, this esh right.. got a sharp nose, and luscious lips... and extremely long and curly eye lashes. thick eyebrows... he's almost perfect man... very well defined. ah huh... girls, wanna know him? just tell me lor... haha... u'll be my rivals.. but. i dun gif a damn now lar... i dun love him anymore. i love him as a friend. yupz... how did i do that? i kept telling myself he's too good for me lor.. and keep reminding myself that he's a flirt. haha... esh, dun get angry hor... but it's the only way =(
i'll try to get his pic and put it online lar... then u can judge. but i seriously think he looks nicer in real life than in pics. and oh.. he's a target for gays.. haha.. gays love him. so do girls.
enough about him.
anyway, today's gonna be hm.. boring again. went to give tuition just now. almost puked blood. the boy's damn naughty... don't even know his 2 times table. and primary 4. goodness. anyway, gonna go city hall shop shop.. and most probably walk all the way down to orchard. dun feel like going out wif anyone today. alone would be best. yupperz...
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11:42
Friday, December 26, 2003
just received an sms from joan... haha!!! the school's concert tickets - they still have 300 left unsold... so sellin them at $8. from $12 to $8.. they must have made quite a loss... well... poor thing they... having concert on the same day as yuhua. people would definitely go to yuhua. but well... i'll be there to support my juniors. work hard okiEe my little children =P
today's friday right... boxer's day... nah it's boxing day. i kept saying boxers day and get teased by my friends. or is it really boxers day? dunnoe... boxers sound nicer. friday night... i remember when i was 17, used to wanna go clubbing on friday and saturday nights - especially friday nights... when i'm outside with my friend, i'd like bug her to go drinking with me.. then we'd go boat quay sit outside the pub and chill out, drinking bourbon coke and vodka.. and she'll drink corona. extremely nice. but now.... i don't feel like doing all that. but still feel like drinking. haha... drunkard.
was talking to aL... and i realised... i miss secondary school days... so fun k... no troubles at all. only my weight problem...
talkin about my weight problem. gonna start my atkins diet again. no flour for a month... but probably extend it to 2 months... see how much i lose. today.. did quite well in controlling my carbo intake lar.... at least better than the past weeks. ate 2 slices of bread thats all... i mean for the carbo part.. others were all protein.
only today then i know there's a foodcourt somewhere near centrepoint - @ cuppage which have quite a good range of food. but the fish soup wasn't that good... too little fish and too much vegetables and tomatoes....
didn't get dark today... cos no sun man. boring. wanna tan myself.... turn red. but... for me, it's impossible to turn red. only turn dark. okay guys.. please pray that i'll lose 5kg soon okie... haha thanks =P
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20:46
damn my life's screwed up. just when my life seems to be running perfectly fine... this idiot has to come in and make me looney. i know it's just me... hoping.... but... i dunno. like he's flirting lor. can't help thinking about what he told me about - the dark side of him.
i'm tryin to forget what happened... but it's damn difficult. after we met, no news... not say no news, but very little news. like somewhat different liao. and... he has made my nights sleepless. feel so damn empty... argh. hey.. if u're reading it now.. please say something nasty to me lar.. make me stop those wishful thinking lor.. but i don't wanna lose a friend like you. so cok.
k.. goin swimming later. at 12noon. hope the weather stays like it is now - sunny and warm.. then after that it's shopping.. not intending to buy any clothes though... maybe buy some butch clothes. dun feel like being a girl siaL... girls have so many things to lose and guys don't. fuck.
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10:46
Thursday, December 25, 2003
xmas day's endin soon.. in a few hours. gained a few kilos today. kept eatin' non stop. not only today, yesterday as well.... dad prepared stuffed chicken - turkey was too hard, i din like it anyway... yeah so dinner was stuffed chicken and urhm.. turkey ham. haha... and turkey sausage. the turkey sausage was great. let me tell you... it's 5cm in diametre. damn yummy~ haha.. and my bro took a bite and started laughing. i know he has a twisted mind. yup.. and filled my tummy entirely.. then drank tiger beer. but dunno wat happened, drank 1 cup and i was kinda high... kept talking rubbish, and felt quite blur. den my dad was so sarcastic man today... "someone drank tiger yesterday night.. and only drank like half a can. waste my $3.50"
i remember how my dad and gran disputed over my glass of tiger. haha... was a very funny scene.
anyway, today's like a food fest. went to carlton to eat dim sum.. and there was this "elf" and "reindeer" who're from ACT3... went there to sing xmas carols and bring some xmas cheer to the pple... but they din get much respond. kinda weird to have them inside a cheeena restaurant.
and after lunch, went shoppin at raffles city and uhm.. bought more food... haha bought fruits and tubs of ice cream to my aunt's place. feelin' fat.
okay... from monday onwards, i'm going back to my atkin's diet. this time with more exercise.... challenged javen. he said he'd gain 4kg in 3 months and me... 5kg in 3 months. but secretly.. i hope in 3 months i'll already lose 10kg lar... i'll try.... damn i need people to push me siaL...
okay, i shall depend on myself. haha...
you guys should see my baby cousin man... 2 years old. and very clever. have a whole huge list of vocabulary.. and even knows wats a diamond. haha.. and very active. can't sit still for a single second. oh man she's such a darling...
realised that... i'm still the same. i thought i've gotten out of my naive stage already. but someone told me i'm naive. somehow... i guess i am lar.. and..... why am i such a cry baby? god knows why i cry man... why did i cry so much and make a fool outta myself. kao. i hate it.... but dunno... i just feel painful.. my heart. sigh...
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20:20
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
startin to feel dat a blog is dangerous. like all my secrets unfolding in cyberspace.... haha.. contradiction. anyway, it's xmas eve today.... and.. i have to confess that.. i never liked xmas. xmas had always been a very quiet affair for me. i guess i just prefer to like.. be in my room, on the aircon, put on those scented candles and eat chocolate and stawberries. it'd be nice... put on gordon's music and play harry's bar. it'd be real romantic... or i could have crystal with me.. and i'll give her a big treat. but it's impossible. cos yJ has to come into the room and use the pC. sigh...
nowadays, feeling confused. very very confused.. especially after meeting the icq guy i toked abt. yup....
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09:24
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
lalala~ been cold for the past few days. the weather's makin me lazy man.. like wanna go swim then the chilly weather just makes me turn away and seek refuge in my bed.. hee... anyway, this new student came for the first lesson today. he's cute.. like almost the opposite of the other boy - wC, who's like damn noisy. this lil boy is so sweet.. shy. hehe.. but what is it that.. all my students have long eye lashes?? goodness... they're makin me jealous. i dun have long ones!!! haha...
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10:48
Sunday, December 21, 2003
wat to say.. boring day again. well, actually, not really boring. hee... nice weather.. and i had a real good sleep. slept at 5pm then woke up at 9am today. hee.. i didn't know i could sleep THAT much! was actually hoping that my dark rings would go away.. but it didn't help. hee.. but sleeping in such weather is really a great relaxtion. anyway... i just spent my whole day online, sleeping, chattin on the phone.
i guess today's my lucky day. met an icq guy who's really... what should i say... unique i guess. like.. wow finally someone on the same frequency as me.. at least for now. don't know what will happen in future though. but i do hope we can know each other till we die or somethin. hee.. people think i'm weird right.. i'm 18, listen to classical music like mozart, love nature, love the woods.. AND!!!! he's like... me. haha.. listens to symphony fm! wow.. and loves gardening.. teehee... ahemz. i'd better not go nuts but well... hehe.. it's really nice to know someone like that..
but i dunno if this friendship will last. i sure hope it will... yes... =)
dad just won the football game. haha... dunno wat team is it anyway.. southampton?? not really sure.. but is was.. SOT vs POR. wat exactly does that stand for?
oh.. the photos that were developed were kinda disappointing.. it didn't turn out very well. very pixelated. the woman said that my camera wasn't good enough for the film. hmm.. dunnoe... but rather sad lar... such a waste...
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22:36
Saturday, December 20, 2003
wat a borin' day. went out wif ju and aL yesterday.. came back only at 8am this morning. yeapz.. caught lord of the rings @ cineleisure. the show's at 2am.. and guess who we saw? michelle chia.. haha.. and so wat? nothing lohz.. just braggin. and man.. i saw DON RICHMOND. my fantasy. haha.. but nah.. i'm not infatuated over him. he's with his gf yinn i think? not very sure though.. yeah.. still in the same clothes.. his typical t shirt and berms. hoho...
anywayz, lord of the rings was nice... quite touching. i shed a few dropsa tears. nah just a few drops. nothing much. and it was real hard tryin to stay awake till 2am.. like gotta spend 8 hours outside.. haha... and time flies, i do agree... just walked and talked. quite nice lar.. woulda been better if i wasn't that tired.
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16:21
Friday, December 19, 2003
just met my fren online.. like never seem him for decades.. den just talk to him one sentence he gotta go. wat a good friend he is. but nah, i won't blame him.. cos he must have reasons for doing so.
i'm definitely suffering from jet lag. it's like.. almost 2 days i'm back in singapore.. but I can't sleep man. sleep at 3am and wake up 8am. and.. i seriously need sleep, just that my brain won't get tired. and my eyes as well... feel like a zombie... what is wrong with me?!!
watever. haha... read san's journal. and i'm really glad she got promoted to sec 5. she was like hopeless. i mean she felt hopeless. she didn't have any ray of hope in her... and now, she passed! just made it. hee... and i'm glad. ya i know i'm repeating, but watever. just want her to strive in her studies.. dun wan her to rot her life away. you control your life, nobody else does.
finally.. the 3 musketeers gonna reunite today. meetin aL and Ju later. been ages we all went out together, since the o levels.. all are like tied up. sianz... wonder how'll it be, after like not contacting aL for years... nah not years la. but almost a year... oh kinda missing jer. haha... those good ol' days!!! he quit school... and jY.. how's he? makes me wonder how are all my classmates doing... nostalgia~
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12:34
yay finally back from the trip!!! haha... so nice to be back home, really. the flight home was so torturing man... 14 hours to seoul.. den go check in again.. then 7 hours back to singapore. imagine the old man sitting beside him. after these 21 hours of flight.. he has to be on transit for 9 hours then another maybe 8 or 9 hours to perth. he dreads it man.. haha... and he's got real good earphones - BOSE -. cool eh =)
this time, my trip to tokyo was rather boring. cos we went there before. so hm... the first day we just went shopping and visit eight star diamond company. man you should see the way they cut their diamond.. when you look through the firescope, the sight is so magnificient. it glows even in the dark, when there's not much light. and going there, learnt some interesting techniques about diamonds. it is actually an element to help you balance up your life - mentally. it seems true.. haha... anywayz... dun ever go tokyo disney sea. cos.. not very nice lar. i mean everywhere you have to line up and it gets real boring like that. lining up for 30 mins.. for just 2 mins of fun. worth it? sometimes.
san francisco was much better. i loved monterey. wasn't really impressed with san francisco itself. it's the neighbouring counties that i'm drawn to. went to muir woods and sausalito - they weren't really nice... but MONTEREY!!! guys, if you have the chance, please please please make a trip there! you should see the sea.. the waves.. WOW!!! very nice! i really wanna stay there.. and see those gulls, they were like flying just above us. luckily they didn;t shit on me. haha!
.duh.
met these 2 guys.. were very nice people. one is a german, owner of a glass masterpiece gallery. aunt bought a huge crystal cube from him.. and he's really very nice lar. ask me work for him.. haha.. i'd love to, of course. but i'm a tourist, so can't do much =( ya and he made me feel so uncomfortable. it's like... keep hugging us - me and my aunt. then when we gotta go still gif us kiss... haha.. just can't help but feel shy. he says all of us are shy =P
and there's eddie. 26 year old and already a millionaire. owner of an antique shop.. and he's planning to start a jewellery biz as well. then my aunt suggested that i could help him, since i was gonna study jewellery eventually. and he was actually looking for a secretary. posted ads on the newspaper, but those who came to him were like.. not ready for a serious job. all looking for some money and fun ya know.. like not serious. and my aunt actually recommended me. then eddie said uh... i was serious enough. haha.. i of course wanted!! cos it'd be such a good experience for me. i was actually thinking of asking him if i could do my internship @ his office. but well.. dunnoe. haha...
oh homosexuals out there~ if there's one place u wanna go to hide from prying eyes, it'd be san francisco. do head down to castro street. cos.. it's where all the gays go. it's legal to be a gay there.. yeah so =) and people won't like look at you differently. cos it's just very normal.
okiEe doKiEe.. enough of my adventures.. haha... tml gotta go swimming man... gotta shed those pounds
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01:49
Thursday, December 04, 2003
weez~~ in another 12 hours i gonna be setting off to tokyo~ haha.. we gonna stay in the keio plaza... but i still dunno wat we gonna do there... i'm more excited about san francisco though.. but again, i thought every country is the same. hope they won't go and visit the shopping places.. cos.... don't think i can find anything interesting. shopping places.. aren't they all the same everywhere? gosh... dunno if i should go for physiotherapy. my joints are aching. it's like... it needs to be pulled until a crack sound is heard then will i feel comfortable. it's not there now.. but i hope it won't return EVER. sianz man.. and like the place is so damn far... tanah merah. takes 45 mins to reach there, and i'm not sure if i really need that... maybe later.. and see how's my fat thigh first.
yeah...
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10:46
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
it's a brand new day... ate dunno wat kinda food just now. sticky sweet and full of peanuts... bit till my jaw hurt. haha...
well... yesterday.... went to moviecity2003 @ suntec. the exhibits... i think will be kinda interesting for people who know something about production. whereas those who never like come across production, wun be really interesting. i actually got bored lar... but the shows were really interesting. being a stuntman is really tough man... like sunshine. he so ke lianz ler.... his finger is grafted wanz.. ouch. i feel pain for him man.. but he still like nothing. haha... great~
ya and there are a lot of wax figures on display. dunno is it wax or not leh.. watever lar.. haha.. took picture wif marilyn monroe... =P it was a real cheeky picture.
suppose to like go bowling wif alvin.. but uh.... i sprained my leg.. haha... or rather.. my thigh?? dunnoe where leh.. but like kinda difficult to walk. and gotta like drag myself to go help my mum and aunt get some stuff before we set off tomorrow.
gosh... it's coming!! thursday.. haha but still gotta wait until nite time... not really interested to go tokyo again leh.. dat time we went.. like not really much loh. all shopping wan... everywhere you go, the shopping stuff are almost the same loh. sianz.. i rather go to their temples and see man... more interesting. but would love to catch the cosplay zone.... den hopefully can take pics. it must be so interesting man.. hahaha... imagine seeing gackt. haha~
lalala... so boring now at home. think in an hour i gotta go get ready and go out.. den come back lohz. and must go library also hor... borrow travel books. lalala~ so enthu!!!
k la... till then. hehe.. good day~
well... wonder how's san... is she still angry? has she come out of her desolation?? i dun wan her to like isolate herself. . i have a feeling she will... well... argh
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11:29
Monday, December 01, 2003
today was a very tiring day. went out since 8:30am.. and have been walking almost 90% of the time. just reach home only.. anyway.. went shopping today. bought jeans... from giordano. kinda difficult.. cos all dun haf my size wan.. =(
haiz.. walked from orchard all the way to city hall.. just to help mama find the vacuum bag... but anyway.. found one loh... if she's satisfied with my discovery.. den i gotta get 2 more. yeah...
today... not really happy. was quite happy at first la.. met with sandra... well, sandra's a nice girl la. nice friend... really feel at ease with her sometimes. she's a lot better than other ppl... but... i was kinda mad at her for a while today. she was like kept saying me "stupid means stupid"... okay, i could like tolerate it for a while... for a few times. but like i lost my cool when she kept saying me.. ya so i just scolded her. i don't regret scolding her... she went off herself loh. but.. sometimes she has this attitude that makes people damn pissed off. i hope she'll change.. and i certainly dun want this incident to sour our friendship.. but i still dun understand why she said we're both from different worlds. we're both from singapore wat. sometimes she's very pessimistic. i hope she can be more positive... i have a feeling she can be a powerful woman in life. it's such a strong hunch i have. yes sandra... keep working to your goals and try to change some of ur attitudes loh.. i really hope u will at least try. cos.. i care for u. not bullshitting. but it's true... i really wanna see you succeed in life, and not always thinking of all the bad stuff. have confidence in urself.. then only will you be happier.. do think of me okay? i'll be thinking of you
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