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Monday, August 30, 2004

***reflections | regrets***

after letting phil and fiona look at all the content that i've written.. life's been pretty easy for me. been slacking, refusing to do any work. there's still the 2000 word essay on interdisciplinarity for the creative industries report waitin for me. it's due on the 9th. yucky assignment. boring. nasty. totally urgh. *pui

anyway, spent my time idling around the net.. surfed on friendster. and came across this friend called ruth. she was one of my best friends during secondary 2. we were both from band. she, a percussionist. a real good drummer. yeah. she smacked the drums so hard, we had to change the drum skins twice in a month. ripper!!! but well.... we used to talk about everything under the sun. she brought me to her church... gee... those fun days. but we soon drifted apart when we went into different classes.. and so.. the people we mixed around with were also different..

thinkin back, i did many nasty things. i was made band major, but i didn't act like one. this was one of the greatest regrets in my life. i feel so ashamed whenever i think of it. firstly, as a band major, i was suppose to set a good example. instead.. i wrote this really stupid letter to this girl. *unlucky me - to share the same birthday as that girl.. or is it because of her that me being born on this day.. that i'm jinxed? watever* anyway, in that letter i wrote stuff like she's a whore, a slut, an "A" class prostitute. cos i was so mad that she told everyone of my seniors that.. i had sex with every guy i see... which in fact, is not true la. my virginity is still intact. stupid woman. ya.. so.. she showed ruth and ruth's good fren - ruth. yeah.. the 2 ruths. from the percussion section. they were both prefects. so.... all the prefects in band came to know of the letter.... and.. it really caused me my reputation. or should i say.... my prefect friends all disappeared. they all went against me, hated me. must be that girl la... enough. sad secondary school band life. 2 teachers-in-charge hated me. one was cos she read the letter, but she didn't punish me. cos i told her that girl said i was in some kuku gang... ya. and the other teacher thought i called her a bitch behind her back.. when it was someone who looked like me. [full.stop]

i can't believe i was so childish. no wonder my brother's friend called me an ah lian. bloody hell. do i look like one? i'm not skinny, i dun wear halter necks, i don't have the cockroach feeler fringes, and i don't dye my hair. i just talk with loadsa singlish. stupid. but back to the topic.... aiya. just feel stupid la.. and ashamed of myself, my actions.

but what made me spit out all that crap out there.... was.... after seeing ruth on friendster, i actually messaged her. i found myself trembling. i got reminded of my nasty past, my stupid actions. i couldn't face her!!!! but i still.... managed to write her somethin. but it took like... 10 mins??? i was THAT nervous. and she's in US of A now.. so, she might laugh at my english.. so i spent a long time correcting it... gee.... well, luckily she replied. but i just hope she can forget all my evil deeds!!!!

*now u know how evil this bitch is. this is wat goes on her mind behind her smiley face.
Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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23:00


Sunday, August 29, 2004

check this out. some guy singing tee orh orh by sun yanzi. click
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02:14


Saturday, August 28, 2004

*sucky bus systems*

yeah. we managed to get up early enough to make a trip to the beach... however, some really UNEXPECTED stuff came up. we were already halfway there...

ok. last nite, i checked the net to get directions to the beach. it said.. "take bus 306 from bus stop 27... okay. so it sounds clear enough right? k.. so this afternoon... we were walkin towards bus stop 27.. and saw bus 306 running by.. ran to the stop - bus stop 24. nvm.. got up the bus, asked how much is the fare to nudgee beach.. okay, so he told us the fare.. so we sat down for like half an hour.. then mick went to ask how long to nudgee beach. noe wat the driver said?? "this bus doesn't go to nudgee beach. it goes to nudgee though. u can take a bus from nudgee".... okay, never mind. perhaps i read wrongly. my fault... then we reached nudgee. asked the driver wat bus to nudgee beach. he said.... "oh, just walk down the road and turn right. u'll see the stop and take bus 306 to nudgee beach"... i was like.. wat the fug??!!!! same bus going to different destinations??!!!!! man.... it's really screwed up, this system!!!! i still can't believe it.. okay, so we walked down...... for perhaps.. 1km or maybe more than that.... and asked a passerby. gee.. she said it's 6km away... so gawdamn far! and i think the sun is setting in another hour or so.. then.. better don't waste time la... just wait for the bus to go home.

i swear i ain't goin to that beach no more! argh.. waste money.... $5 bucks on transport to some ulu place!!!!! gawd!

*having migraine again.. sianz.sickening.


Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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what kinda comment is that... too much? too little? wat sia..
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02:37




gee.. finally i'm 19... ehhe... i'll stay the same age as liuyong for around 2 weeks then he's gonna go ahead in the age race. haha... one more year to enjoy being a "teen".... two more years to becoming a "woman".... and 21 more years to being an "auntie"....

am really glad so many people wished me "happy birthday". it's such a nice feeling.. when u're abroad on ur birthday, so lonely.. hee.. luckily i have two frens with me.... the guys la.

they tricked me today.... we were in the lab, went out of the lab.. and liuyong saw this citybeach carrier. citybeach's a surfwear shop... so he was like "Wah... someone forget to take his thing".. then he asked me if i wanted to open it. i said "no la, i'm not a thief".. then he opened the bag and took out a pair of board shorts. then i walked out... actually... that shorts is for me la.. they were just acting. but damn. it was really a surprise. i thought they were kidding, wanted to give me stuff they stole.. but it happens.. they bought it. gee.. so sweet sia.... almost cry. haha... can't believe it... but uh. the shorts too small la... aku pantat maniak besar. tak boleh pakai la... kasi aku size 10!!! when gua pakai size 14 ka 16! then went to the shop to change.. haha.. still sikit tight la... must lose weight. hahaha.. but funny. why australia so many bbw.. and the clothes sizes still so small...

so.... i saw the price of the shorts. so ex... they still bought it. stupid guys!!!! can save money save la! spend money buy stuff for wat sia... ehhe.... i very mean hor.... ppl gif me stuff still kena scolded by me. hehx.. but.... aiya.. THANKS...
then.. went sizzler for dinner. and.. i didn't treat them. felt like a bastard... but too ex la... but.. aiya. lots of buts. the meal was damn satisfying... now, 4 hours after eating the meal, i'm still bloated.

was observing ang mohs... noticed that most of them have got really generous assets.. makes me wonder... how come? they're like... really good looking.. curvy figures.... nice eyes, nice everything, rich.. and they're like almost in everypart of the world. but we're all humans. how come there are chinese, europeans etc.. all different color. what color was adam and eve? were they ang moh? or they painted their children into different colors??? these kinda questions have been bugging me for quite some time. but i don't think i'll ever get to know the answers.. ahaha.. unless God tells me. but again.. how were humans created from a Buddhist's pov? from an Islam pov?? hm.

plan to go beach tomorrow... but i just hope we can all wake up early enough... sleep always takes over our activities!!!
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01:07


Thursday, August 26, 2004

***happy 19th birthday***

this message goes out to people like:

agnes ang peiling
yeo see wee
leonard lim yao ting
ricky tze
st pats nicholas
chim sin yee
joanne and joanne

happy birthday guys~~
i think mother theresa's birthday falls on 27th august as well??? but she's in heaven now.. oh well... hehz

a lil' somethin about babes born on 27th august 1985:
You are Brown Sheep, who is modest and have a gentle atmosphere.
You tend to express self confidence and calmness.
You also have guts not to give up on things so easily.
You are not shy towards men too.
You like to take care of the others, and can not turn down favors.
You are rather emotional, and optimistic.
This leads you in making hasty decisions and overly optimistic outlook.
You tend to take on things without thinking about your capability, and suffer with burden afterwards.
You should think twice before taking on favors.
When you can't cope with the work you took on, it is you that people regard as a person who lacks perspective.
You have your own sense of values.
You try to seek values in other people, and will start a relationship on trust.
But you tend to be stubborn, and have great many likes and dislikes.
You also hate being instructed, and decisions made by other people.
You have observing eyes towards the others, and your natural sense of instinct and decisions are well developed.
You are also a good negotiator.
You are kind to those who work under you, and will not forget to show consideration and generosity.
But you can be hard and difficult to those above you.
They will regard you as being a rebellious person.
You are a proud person, and do not like to lose.
Nevertheless, you are very sociable and intelligent.
You will not end up being an ordinary housewife.
You are a bold and passionate person.

source==> http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php
go try and see if its true!!! tell me bout it =P
peace~
Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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so sweet of these girls... my cliq @ sp... have been together since year 1.. and they're a great bunch. sweetie pies!!! muackz~ was actually kinda touched they actually took the heart to design a card for me.. hehe...

hey.. i'm 18!!!!! better say it before i turn older... haha... gee time flies.... i'm gonna be 19 real soon..... and my future seems so.. bleak. i had envisioned myself to be a successful university graduate at the age of 21... but now it seems highly impossible? haha...

was at the computer lab from midnite last nite till 7am this morning.. so tired, went home to sleep.. then went to shop for groceries. hmm.. today was a fairly relaxing day. came back took lunch, rested for a while and off we went to some place... was looking for shopping centres. so we took the train to this place called "fairfield"... gee it was really a disappointment. it's like... so empty. the only attraction of the "shopping centre" is... the supermarket. and on the train map it still put "MAJOR shopping centre"... how MAJOR is that???? then we just took the train down until don't know where... took like quite long. maybe half an hour? then we got down.. realised the bus that we always take goes there.. so we took the bus and kinda amazingly.. we reached home in 10 mins... hm.

planning to go sunshine coast on saturday.. hopefully we can wake up early enough to spend more time in the sun!! spending like an hour in the sun is so... uncool. saving money so that we can go gold coast as well.... hope we can get some good bungee jumpin deals. am more interested in sky diving though.. but it's way too expensive.... gee... will see how things go. the financial department in singapore is nagging.. "ke ying!! where's all ur money flowing to??!!!"

okie dokz.. better get started on my project. mick's doing SO MUCH i feel so useless... so i snatched the comp first... ask him to scram off!!!!! I DUN WANNA LET U USE LEH =P tomorrow i come at 9am!! i dun wanna let u use also!!! SHOO!!
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*i've learnt...*

during my near to two months stay here, i've to say, i've learnt a lot of things...

the most obvious being, i've learnt how to cook, take care of myself....

and also... i've learnt more about what kind of person am i...

but one thing i have really discovered.. and agree with what ray says.. is that people have to start learning how to stick to what they say. many times, i've told him we'll meet up, have a cuppa tea, chillout, chat.. and yet, i don't do anything to fix a date with him. that's when i got "lectured"... which made me to think back and realise "hey, my friends around me don't keep to what they say as well"... is that how singaporeans were brought up? so say something and do the other?

many times, friends have stood me up. say... let's meet 1pm at orchard. and.. of course 1pm.. to me, it's either late or early.. depends. but still, i'll have the discipline.. to set the alarm clock. and i reach orchard at 12:55 if not.. latest being 1:30... when i'm reaching there, my dear friend messages me "hey.. where are you? i just woke up." i felt so fugged. can you imagine urself taking the effort to wake up, to keep to your appointment, and your friend takes his/her own sweet time? that clearly goes to show... wat an "important" friend u are...

i say.. don't just honour important appointments like formal interview. honour what you say to your friends as well.. isn't it a little unfair that your friend wakes up early (despite how late he slept).. just to honour that verbal contract u both made.. and you urself don't honour that contract? *something to think about...

feel kinda depressed today actually..
slept at 5am.. and got woken up by my mum's sms.. asked me where's my money flowing to... had some immature thoughts like "if you don't have money, you could just tell me. i wouldn't have came here"... and i was really annoyed by her sms. but i just told this friend about it.. and he gave me his point of view.. and i thought yeah.. what i thought was kind of immature.. but still.. haiz.
then... i tried to go back to sleep... was kinda hard. kept thinkin about what my mum text. then i finally slept.... and.. my alarm clock rang. remembered we were to go shopping for groceries today.. so woke up, bathed.. and fug. the heater's not workin.. so had a quick chill bath... sat in front of the tv. waited... 12.30..1.00..1:30..2.00... gone. they're still sleeping. they turned off their alarms. that made me even more disappointed.. so... went to the city. just another boring day la...

argh.. still sad now... !!!!!

oh the only happy thing i'm happy about is that... i had a great time trying out clothes at the shopping centres.. and bought some real cheap and nice undies.. haha..
and.. also bought a card for Fday!!!
other than that, my mood's.. 10%.
Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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03:33


Wednesday, August 25, 2004

*i'm feeling grateful*

this afternoon.. was falling asleep on the sofa while watching olympics.. the boys just went down. they were gonna go renew the camera.. suddenly.. ly shouted damn loud "ke yiiiiing!!!" i was like.. wat the hell... shout so loud for wat. i sleeping... then i dragged myself to the balcony. GOODNESS.. letters for me!!!!! immediately i woke up.. i mean i didn't feel tired anymore. hehe...

got a birthday card from my family!!!!! it was a HALLMARK card (Which means it aint cheap la)... and... i saw my dear brother's handwriting... and my mum's. i was really surprised to get that card.. and i'm grateful... now i really know.. my parents love me.. and my brother too.. he wrote :from all.. and the cutest "me and crystal"... i laughed. i know crystal is cute.. but he?? a bit thicked skinned eh, boi =P

the second envelope... was thick. the postage is... $6.10.. it's from my junior from band.. or my god sis.. anyway... she's really sweet... sent me this book. the whole of the book is telling me how special i am to her, to the whole world... it can really lift ur spirits after reading it. the whole world just seems brighter.. every year.. well, at least since i was in sec 4.. i've been celebrating my birthday with 2 of my best juniors.. who are also really good friends.. though we're not like that close.. we have this special bonding.. this year, i wont be celebrating my bday...
but anyway, back to the point... these two sweeties... joan and sandra. joan is 16, sandra is 17.. they're both younger than me.. but i think we have this connection.

.. i'm really glad i've got these two sweeties in my life.. i'd better start learning to treat people nicely too... often, i think i take friendships for granted. i've always been complaining how lonely i am, how little friends i have... i have two very sincere, very truthful, "long" friends with me.. and i will not let this friendship fade.. i'm going to treasure whoever crosses my path.. especially this group of friends i have at sp... =) *emotional

my dear bro's gonna look so smart this teacher's day... he has this "be urself day".. and his class' theme is "formal clothes".. so he's gonna wear his specs, gel up his hair, wear a shirt and argh. formal. but he's gonna look so yandao.. haha..

we went out of food today... cos we all were too lazy to get our lazy bums off bed.. and woke up too late for marketing.. so went to this "kopitiam". ate a super expensive meal - mixed grill $12... ex right??!!! gee.... and was watching this talk show "rovelive".. they cracked this really mean joke. the screen flashed a cheque.. Singapore Technologies Kinetics.... and panned to this name "Goh Lih Kok".. that's the chairman or something. and the audience laughed... apparently.. they thought it sounded really funny "Goh Lih Kok - go lick cock"... but it's such a rude joke. haiz... so crude.
anyway, eating mixed grill made me realise how much i loathe dieting.... it's tuesday.. and it's the second week since i told myself i will not touch carbo. last week i totally killed my plan cos of the buffet.. and also meals at red rooster. i just have such low determination.. and this week.... has just started. yesterday went to this posh place, had this value meal.. just had to touch the chips... and today, mixed grill. it'd be such a waste if i dun eat the chips!!! i am such a loser.. i hate losing weight.. the thought of losing weight turns me off...!!!! and yet i wanna lose weight. wat the hell.. easier said than done. argh. argh. argh.

getting tired.. i'm so much looking forward to getting sandra's mail... gee.... wonder what she has in store for me... hehe.. i can't believe i'm turning 19 soon.. i'm getting.. OoOoOoLLDdDdDd...
Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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03:16


Tuesday, August 24, 2004

***to my dearest ni er***
ni!!! must get well soon wor~ i'm not able to read ur blog.... and leave a message on ur tagboard (if u have one).. so... i'm posting here, hoping u'll see this. i miss u wor~ muackz~
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Monday, August 23, 2004

what's with the new toolbar man.... okay, it's like... so "tin teh"..... block my upper text. gee... i'm also not sure if my new template is updated yet. sometimes i can see it, sometimes i don't. irritating.. and blogger is like.. so slow at times. yesterday i tried logging in... hola. i logged into liuyong's account. i don't know how the hell is that suppose to happen when he did click "Sign Out".. TECHNOLOGY!!!!!

was having a chat yesterday... talked about our future. it's like.. my future is so bleak. i don't know what to expect.. i mean.. i don't think i can go out and get work with my Diploma in MMT.. if i do get an interview.. i think the person would like be turned off by my designs. but well, design is subjective. but still, this field is so super competitive. look around u. how many people out there can't do webpage? Use photoshop? Perhaps not that good.. but i'm not good either. i can't code from scratch. feel so devastated when i try to compare kids with me. what's our difference? my age i suppose... they know how to use photoshop.. dreamweaver.. html. and they're in primary school. my "godpa" 's daughter. primary 5... knows javascripting. and she can like code from scratch while i can't. i know nuts about javascripting. every script's downloaded. and.. man this is such.. argh. my head will split if i continue.. hope i'll get some direction before i graduate. or i'll just spend my time being a salesgirl. HOW ASPIRING!

i think in another 2 or 3 weeks we'll be able to finish our project... which is really good. then we can go play.. go gold coast.. and hug koalas. woohoo~ but well.. work comes first. and i gonna shop a lot... that depends if i have got enough money left. time flies.. 1.5 months left... i think i'll leave this place half heartedly. love and hate this place. love and hate singapore.

just saw my lovely brother's blog. he's got a bicycle. says my dad auctioned it during the 7th month dinner. 7th month. i remember in singapore when it's 7th month i don't go home late. i'm scared of ... u know what... ehhe.. and my mum doesn't allow me to as well. but i do miss those dinners and incense paper smell.

just now when i was in the toilet. was reading my.. cookbook. suddenly thought of liondance. that familiar rythm.. tune just came into my head. looking at what nicholas from sp LD told me.. they're gonna start a dragon dance troupe also.. which means LD+DD... yup. and bought 2 lions.. must be real nice. saw the pics. WOW.... so many good things happened after i left. maybe i'm just so jinxed man... but i was totally pissed off with kenneth. stupid chairman.

watching the olympics is so inspiring. makes me regret things i have not chosen in life. in primary school.. was mad about hockey. wanted to join hockey... went secretly for hockey practice.. but still got caught by papa. cos i think he kinda saw my consent form.. i forged his signature. =(

then.. it was basketball. secondary school there was no hockey team... so wanted to go for the basketbal trial. bloody hell... so many people, long queue. and i didn't like to bare my arms... jerseys mah... yah. vainity and impatience took over. and they introduced floorball. but they didn't have floorball girls.... that's like SO SAD man... i missed hockey.. now i gotta miss floorball. nvm.. i didn't regret joining band.

now, in polytechnic. i really regret joining liondance. felt so BLOODY FORSAKEN and LONELY.... all guys. even my primary school best friend didn't talk to me. aiya wat to do.... never see each other for so long. but i can't believe we used to play catching and everything after school with those ah lians from p6 em3.. hehz... they were really nice and sweet to us. yah. and saw floorball in sp only like recently. but i'm already graduating.. so there goes my "sporty" ambitions.. will see how things go. now i feel like playing volleyball... man. miss those times when the whole school would go watch XINMIN VS PHS or PEICAI VS PHS. it was real fun. insulting each other's school with "Boo-sama-li-ya" something like that.. not sure. and with the "oOoOoo~ SA!" that's when the player sets the ball and another spikes it. great times.. feelingg so nostalgic now.

seeing mick so hard at work makes me feel so bad... but well.. i'm just having problems with my language. i'm content writer... but argh. today fiona really surprised us. she's our client cum project manager. we didn't have the impression that she knows anything about director. and today when mick told her our problem... she looked at the code for like erhaps 10-20 mins and BINGO. solved our problem with a ONE LINE CODE. gee, she's a genious! but she's really nice...

*tired

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Friday, August 20, 2004

i am feeling so darn tired. my brain's like numbed. cos of my project. it's really a simple project.... we're doing things that we are able to do.. BUT.. the problem lies with the stupid content. there is like so much content... and so little space. and.... it's so warped up i don't know how to describe it. section a must link to b, c, d, e and vice versa. can't think of any ways to link them up "sensibly".. and it's taxing my brain cells. i'm so burnt out.

haven't been sleeping well.. and when i DO sleep well, i have to wake up early. gee.. i'm gonna try my newest sleeping position tonight again. or risk not sleeping well. i hope it works. see? even sleeping requires me to think. damn.

bought a skirt yesterday.. and a shirt. ran out of clothes to wear.. but the skirt's really nice..... some.. fleece skirt. girlish. but it's not pink. it's black. and i lied to my mum.. told her the skirt costs $150. she was like "huh?!!!" but nah it's only sgd$35.. which i consider really cheap. u can't get stuff like that in sg.. usually costs ard 60 to 70. yuppers..
*a call to all big beautiful women out there : come to australia!!! it's our SHOPPING PARADISE! CHEAP, CHIC and GOOD!!!


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Thursday, August 19, 2004

i'm a chef. haha.. training to be one. am so obsessed with cooking. even made a yucky scrambled egg... scrambled avocado+tomato+mushrooms+hotdog... it tasted so.. mushy. haha.. so lydia and teng.. if u wanna taste my cooking uh. better think again =P but of course, if you really want to.. i can whip up a good meal. just pray none of you get food poisoning.

having really bad sleeping habits. go home at 3am or 4am.. i don't know, around day break... when in singapore, at that time i'd be sleeping like a log already. and i go out at like... 9pm or 11pm?? in singapore i'd be grounded. man.. wonder if things will change when i go back to singapore. cos whenever i go out.. when it reaches 10pm, mum or dad will call me.. ask me to go home. and sometimes it's so boring to go home so early. yj'll still be using the net... at least i get to experience 3 months of boring night life here. hehx...

received a letter from papa today. man.. i felt so good after reading that letter!!!!! i realised how much i miss my family. even though i don't think much about them.. my mind only goes out to crystal. cos i have such an uncomfy bed and pillow and no bolster...
anyway.. papa's such a joker. asked me if he can be my pal. said stuff like.. he's a young old man.. that he's 63.. no, he's 36... then crapped that he doesn't really know his age, just that he haven't gone into NS.. so maybe he's only 18. haha.. the best part is this... he says "mum and papa are so happy that our darling has finally learned how to take care of herself. finally, she will stop saying 'PAPA!!! COOK DINNER NOW, I'M HUNGRY!!!...PAPA!! WASH THE DISHES!!!....PAPA!!WASH MY CLOTHES!!!'..... was i so..... demanding?? i only asked him to cook dinner and said i didnt wanna wash the dishes wat.. who ask him to cook dinner from 6-9 still havent cook finish.... hehz.. look~ my dad's helluva great dad. and that's why.... if u're wondering why can i talk so much and talk crap.... congratulate my father. he's brought me up well =)

man.. i have to say this.. IAN THORPE's super yandao... hahaha... nice teeth, nice face, nice features, nice body, i bet he smells nice. yeah.. probably smell of chlorine for being in the pool all his life.

working on my project nowadays... i'm doing stuff too slow. need to concentrate!!!!! do stuff faster. but the code's killing me. dunno what the hell is wrong with the program. can't seem to do simple rollovers. argh!

this goes out to my dear friend lydia..
lydia.. thank you so much for mentioning me in your blog. i really didn't expect to see my name there.. cos we were like close in secondary school but after that we sorta stopped contacting each other only recently. but in secondary school, u were great fun. loved and miss those times when i used to hang out at your place almost everyday.. and u teaching me how to cook the egg omelette... that kickstarted my "career" in cooking. haha but the cheese always get burnt. ahemz. and how u will always treat me as if i'm a little sister.. taking care of me. in fact, u are always there to support and be there for anyone when they are in need. u've really changed a lot.. changed for the better.. and i'll never regret knowing you.. and.. i hope and wish that we'll always be friends, good friends.. muackz~~ it sounds pretty much the same i wrote in ur tagboard.. but well... it's from the bottom of my heart. *hugz

feeling a lil' sentimental now. feel like crying.. gee.. homesick.

just a bit more.. I HATE MY BED!!!!!!!!! giving me aches everywhere!!!!! STUPID BED!!!! PAY $80 TO SLEEP IN SUCH A BED WITH A SUPER THICK PILLOW THAT I GET SORE NECK EVERY MORNING!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

ok.
Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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Sunday, August 15, 2004


Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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23:42




oh my fuckin goodness.
i was surfing around other people's blog... among the people doing their internship. came across one of my coursemates.. i don't know her, and she doesn't know me. read that there's this pervert in her company who hugs and kisses her without her permission. yucks. wat a pest, wat an ass. bastard. poor girl, has to go through this kinda shit. damn. makes me wonder again... i mean it's a fact. girls are just so gullible at times. damned guys... sometimes i wish i could pull the balls outta those pervertic guys. but for one thing i know jeremy sure almost lost his fatherhood... with that slap.. =P jeremy, if u're reading.. u should know you're lucky. haha!!!

heard somethin from teng.. which made me hop in glee. hoho.. i shan't tell the whole world this, but i shall put a quote from sudhir:
Self Praise Is Universal Disgrace
I like this quote of his a lot =) nice to "smoke" people with.

as usual, slacked the day away. after waiting for around 1.25 months.. i realised we have around one month or slightly less than that to complete the dvd rom. 3 weeks of september will be used for testing. and i'm still at the screen designs. for 2 weeks... i've been extremely lazy. i think we slacked till we lost count of the days. time kinda flies.. gee.... i wanted to start doing the first screen in director. but........ feeling... BORED. wat the hell.... shall REALLY start tomorrow.

stuffed myself with goodies today. had fries.. at red rooster, and also at home.. for dinner. then ate ice cream.. wall's street cornetto "No Boring Bits!"... berry passion. berry nice. ate sakata corn and rice crackers and uhm.... Picnic chocolate... i eat myself obese today. Because... i was hoping i'll stop my junk food binge for good->this year.. this day. so.. i shall try. but out of 10 tries, only 1 try is successful... haha.. as u can see, i have really low determination. gotta train up.

woo~~ just got a message from radon!!! he just clinched 2 gold medals at Pesta Sukan 2004!!!! WAY TO GO BOY~ I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU!!!!! teehee~ pesta sukan is this annual bodybuilding competition... see who has the most toned body... I THINK. hehx... weee~~~ he's been training real hard for this.. he deserves it!!!! haha.. weird. he's not my boyfriend. just a friend.. but i feel happy for him sia.. i think it's cos i've known him for a long time... from thin to fat to fit. haha... will try to post some pics of him~ teehee~

wat a good news to end my night =)


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Saturday, August 14, 2004

realised i'm pretty excited about cooking.. haha.. most of my posts have been about what i've been cooking. but ehhe.. i just gotta say.. i cooked babi chin today!! i think it means.. fragrant pork?? i don't know.. but it tastes nice.. just that the pork was a little.. springy. haha.. like bubble gum! but i like... most ppl don't like. but well.. will just simmer it for a longer time next time!!!

anyway.. woke up at 2pm today. and was just complaining to papa panda that i usually sleep late cos i'm afraid of waking up the earliest and having nothing to do.. but i end up to be the latest.. =P just today!!!

was just emailing claire.. told her i feel like i'm training to be a housewife during this internship.. haha.. and it's really true. over here, i've learnt how to cook different dishes, clean the house.. and NAG. haha.. what a great change.. yeah i even wash my own clothes. gee....

was surfing around.. and saw this..... real cute. u guys in singapore will find it familiar!!! *just right click, save as.


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Friday, August 13, 2004

FOOD OF THE DAY: Mick's Dark Soy Sauce Chicken

yeah... enjoyed that dish the most today. haha.. other than that, i cooked vegetables... tried another kangkung styled vegetables. but this time didn't add any chilli powder.... the end product was: salty. added too much soy sauce... gee.. i swear, i gonna make it perfect the 3rd time!!! it's time to get some lettuce.... hoho.. and tomatoes. and damn.. i'm having sweet tooth. starting to NEED chocolates. whenever i come to the lab... i just need to bite on a chocolate bar. having a low carbo and salad dish everyday.. SO WAT?? i always ruin the day at the end of the day with a bar of chocolate..... -_-" so much for my determination.

today was another day slacked away. stayed at home the whole day... woke up... had a bath.. cooked... made chicken & avacado with tosei. innovation eh... avacado tastes like crap when eaten alone. but it tasted superb when i put it with the tosei and chicken. yummy~ tried making cabarona chicken but failed la.. didn't read instructions properly. EGG YOLK. not whole egg... i put the whole egg in... and add CREAM .. not normal full cream milk... -_-!!! anywayz... went back to sleep after that. was really lazy la.... till now my eyes are like kinda droopy.

had a dream.. a very weird dream while i was taking my nap. dreamt that crystal, my dog... could mutate into a human. was in the form of a woman.. but not a beautiful woman... a drag queen. a transvestite. with huge eyes and fluttery eyelashes. look like malay. nice figure... blue long nails. yucks... and i asked her what did she do to my crystal. she said in order to survive, she killed my darling's soul and now her soul is in its body. wat sia... so scary. i hope my dog is fine... i miss her soooooo much!!!!

then.. that indian guy at home had to remind me of her. geez.. he was talking about his dog in india.. and.... subsequently i was kinda.... triggered to think about my darling's little actions... scratching on my leg to get pieces of food.. digging into the dustbins.. jumping onto my bed and walking all around on me until i wake up.. then she'd like.. puff and run away.. aww that naughty little sweetie.. miss her!! wish i could hug her to sleep..

thought of cookie... received a cute card from him. but he thought my name was LING..... i got a little mad actually.. i was like "LING??!!!" haha... but well... will haev to wait till i go back.. and i cant wait to go home lie on my bed hug my dog! the bed here is like shit.... stupid mattress. looks nice to sleep on but actually the springs are all damaged. when u lie down it seems as if u are lying on the wooden plank only. bad for bones.

that's it for now... this.. meaningless blog entry

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

was chatting online and surfing on friendster at the same time when this guy chatted me up through the random chat feature on icq.
first, he asked me for friendster e-mail... searched for me, and looked at my profile. and golly i was chatting with so many people at the same time i didn't respond to him much.. but i still bothered to respond man... then suddenly he said something like.... u better change your friendster profile. don't know what he means.. but we were like chatting so well. perhaps he was finding for a mate or somethin... haha.. fug.. losers!!
anyway, went to 2 of my friend's profile... they were guys i knew online. but quite close.. met one before, the other haven't. okay.. call them D and A. d&a -_-"
anyway... yeah D is such a wolf.. i met D before. of course we didnt do anythin. but he look damn pervert.... said he was looking for a lover. hell no i told him i wasnt interested. he told me he was 24. but actually he's like nearing 40... and i looked at his friends on friendster... ALL GIRLS. wat the hell?? obviously he's some buaya la... then when i told him i didnt wanna chat with him that much anymore.. he deleted me off his list. wat the hell.. but i don't care. who needs wolves... cheeko uncles... yucks.
another is A.... when he first msged me, i told him i was hoping he aint that kind who just anyhow message ppl just to make his list bigger. but found out he's some buaya.... looked at his friends.. all female. maybe 400 plus in his list... and most are chiobus.
really.. the net is really full of wolves waiting to make a move on some innocent girls... can't stand it sia.... yucks.

anyway.. today cooking was rather successful. cooked chicken soup and sambal ikan. the sambal ikan was kinda salty.. cos put too much belacan plus shrimps.... but the taste was there. and the chicken soup was superb.. haha.. first time felt so satisfied...

went to do marketing also. went out with like.. 65 bucks.. came back home broke. bought some shells.. duinno what shells la.. some seafood. then also bought fish... so ex. one piece almost 8 bucks. sotong... poultry was the cheapest. bought like.. 3 drumsticks, 2 thighs, pork chunks and 3 pieces of pork chop....only 14 bucks. great buy.. didnt buy much veges cos we didn't know what we like.. anyway veges seem to taste all the same. hehx... that's partly cos we aren't chefs la.... but we are "CIP" chefs in progress.. haha... or is it chefs in training? nvm...

miss my darling doggy.. muack muack~ heh... *mushy but she's real cute... miss hugging her.
miss papa mama..
miss siti and everyone at school..
miss cookie.. (^v^)

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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

wat is the time now?? 4:26am... and i'm blogging. wat the??!! been at this lab since 11pm... tryin to do some of my designs.... like shit... i cant design right la... or i cant design extravagant stuff. it's so sickening..
but right now.. my eyes are like wide open just that my brain's kinda switched off.... gee... (-_-)
today's ekka wednesday.. it's a public holiday. and heard there wont be transport as well.... wat sia. so boring.... haiz.

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Monday, August 09, 2004

hmm... i think i was a little overbroad in my last post... but well, having read mick's point of view.. i guess he is right.. i shouldn't just say or think things as they are in my point of view. but well.. SORRY MICK AND LIUYONG!!!!! May we live in peave happily ever after. no i dunt think we all want that.. haha.. for 2 more months and u'll not hear my nagging anymore. and no more poo-neh.

well, just saw the proposal. what am i suppose to do?? i'm like.... the IN CHARGE for packaging DVD... but I'm not designing the package. someone else is. and.. all i have to do.. is to correspond with the print company. well, i havent done that before, so it'll be an experience.
and.. eeks. LOADS OF KOPIWRITING. haiz...

currently, what i'm doing for Terrain!Terrain!Terrain! is that I'm doing loads of designing.. almost designing the whole dvd.. and programmer.. and copywriter as well.. so when i go back to singapore.. i'll still be doing copywriting!!! so sian... but well, i suddenly remembered i wanted to have a degree specialising in kopiwriting.. wanna be a copywriter. better give it some more serious thought... -_-
but i THOUGHT it was wat i want?? aiya... contradictions! how irritating!

waiting for Insomniac to come back online... these days he's the only person chatting with me. so he keeps me occupied at night.. hoho.. but poor thing he. just met with a car accident, had his ribs broken or something.. punctured his lungs.. i think. stayed in hospital for a week, mc for a week, and he has to go to work tomorrow... then i cant chat wif him le =(
if u're reading.. get well soon!!!

depression is starting to creep into me, i dont know why... must be sarah brightman's songs...


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Happy Birthday Singapore!

Just watched the grand finale of the National Day Parade.. online. www.ndp.org.sg
I liked the part that paid tribute to PM Goh the most... I think he's just a great man. He must be so touched.. and full of memories... haiz... hm. mixed feelings.. but does it concern me at all? I'm not in the cabinet. but politicians.. i guess.. they must be such nice persons when they're not dealing with politics. remember seeing him once at the coffee shop.. he is just so tall. and i remember ke telling me that he told her she looks nice.. somethin like that.

today is my first month anniversary here. yeah... coincides with National Day. kinda cool, isn't it? And we got a present.... i'm totally cool about it, but the boys are SO NOT. well, this guy from India moved in with us. He's staying in between the guys' room and mine. He looks decent, and his female cousins have all came in to help him unpack and settle down. Well, they are nice people. Had a great chat with the girls.. haha.. they were so cute. like school girls.. well, we were talking about those indian guys living downstairs. Handsome or Ugly.. haha... well, they're not good looking. The only one that i thought was good looking.. i call him Mr Steamy.. he moved away. sob... no more yandao liao.

anyway, back to wat i was saying. yeah.. the guys are taking this badly. they simply hate indians... SUCH RACISTS!! they say they are not racists, but obviously they are??!! they hate the indian smell... what kinda smell do indians emit?? shit smell??? let me analyze... whenever they pray, they put coconut ash onto their foreheads... and they cook lotsa curry... use lotsa spices and coconut milk to cook. and also... hm. sometimes they have this jasmine smelled oil. but the jasmine smell is overpowering at times, i admit.. cos once i went to gong gong.. and he put that on my scalp. smelt "not so good"...
things that make an indian smell (in a stinky chinese singaporean's pov):
1. coconut ash
2. curry
3. spices
4. coconut milk
5. jasmine oil

does that smell bad??? i don't think so.
well, i am proud to say that.. i am not a bloody racist. do you think they know they smell like that? they're born with it. i mean .... argh... it's not like BO or anything. it's like.. food smell?? natural smell.. not like shit smell. associate shit with bangledeshi workers i dun mind. they are just sick. spare all other same colored people.
and.. i think talking to people who already are so stubborn is just wasting my saliva. they'd just say "because u love indians." wat the fug?? okay, hell YEAH, i do love indians. so wat? i also love chinese and ang mohs wat.. whoever yandao i love la. but i have to admit... difficult to find chinese who know how to be a gentleman la.... at least indians and ang mohs.. those that i've came across, ARE. and they are so much more gentlemanly..

but well, perhaps all of you that are reading my blog will feel that i'm bullshitting. cos i know about 98% of you chinese singaporeans just hate indians. i hate some indians.. that kinda ah beng indians who dye their hair gold and speak loudly, kiss and pet in public. but not all indians are like that. haiz... *waste energy. but siti.. i know u'll know what i'm talking about. i'm glad u read my blog. the other 1% would be sudhir i guess.. and also people like diyana, lisa.. who have wonderful indians guys.

*phew.

so bored. have to edit the fyp proposal... it's so wordy. and i feel like the whole document is always talking about the same thing. it's gotta look PURPLE, COSY, PROFESSIONAL. serious. and gotta come out with some screen designs... i hope i can.. though perhaps it's not that compulsory.. but i've squeezed most of my juices for terrain! terrain! terrain!

poor liuyong.. is sick. i hope he gets well soon.. cos we all know how sad it is to fall sick overseas.. and hope his "lao mah" doesnt read this.. or she'll be so sad.

oh. i think kenneth seah lives near us. mick saw him yesterday, while he was calling his mum. saw kenneth seah in slacks and slippers.. goin to the convenience store near our house. gee.. hope he doesn't like like next door?!!!! i dun wanna hear him having sex with some girl... haha.. i tot i heard someone moaning this morning. =P

has anyone used a tampon? i think a tampon is like so amazing... it's like sex. (wat sia)... no la. it's like... quite small, a bit smaller or about the same size as my little finger, just shorter. perhaps like 3cm in length. and u insert it inside. it will expand when it absorbs the *u noe wat. i dun wanna say =P
uh... just a cheeky remark : if anyone of u out there are waiting eagerly to lose ur virginity, u can lose it to ur tampon. it's much safer. in fact, it's absolutely safe. u just need practice. haha!!
and oh.. i think in singapore, people are encouraging the use of tampons as well.. u see tampons posters in the toilets.

never blogged this long for a long time.. peace~

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Sunday, August 08, 2004

feel so alive today.. finally.. they woke up earlier than me =P ... was specially surprised by liuyong. woke up at 6am to go lab... tried to digitize the videos. someone give him a pat for being so hardworking!! =)

yeah anyway, i cooked him a yummy dish to support him.. haha... cooked for the 3 of us actually. we had "kangkung styled dou miao".. and ly cooked us sambal sotong.. and mick cooked spring onion + onion omellete. nice sia.... well, ly said my kangkung was nice.. but damn spicy. the first bite was.... haha.... "sensational"... well, they were all complaining. but i admit la.. it's damn hot. haha put too much chilli powder. i din noe chilli powder was THAT powerful. hee.. put 4 tablespoons... plus garlic... almost wanted to add dry chilli. luckily did not. hehz.. and ly said somethin like.. "if u cook this again, i'm going to get angry. what did we do that you have to cook this kinda food?" haha.. i didnt do it on purpose!!!! well, anyway.... cooking is experimentation =)

http://us.f1f.yahoofs.com/bc/625f4100/bc/Brisbane/Yummy.wmv?bfL1PFBBvMtVtLZt
click on it to view a nice movie... uhm but i dunno if it works.. please tell me =)
yeah i also uploaded some of our pics. it's on the "pix" links on the right side.

feel so relaxed today.. nothing to do... basically idle around. oh man. our new landlords are so nice... asked them to bring us blankets.. did on the day itself. now the nite's not so cold with 3 blankets!!! and the blankets are thin ones.. mind u!!! so... 3 thin blankets are such a luxury in winter. yeah... woke up with a sore neck and icy feet this morning. how sick! and i think i'm becoming nocturnal. it's 1:47 now and i dont feel tired at al... must be the nap...


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Sunday, August 01, 2004

rejoice, people... REJOICE!!! the chinese bitches are moving out tomorrow!!! ehhe... happy sia...
but i found a disturbing thing today. their shit. stuck somewhere near the seat. in fact if i were to sit on the seat.... my cheeks woulda brushed against it. yucks. that's bloody disgusting. and i freaked out.... kept saying disgusting. and the two shameless pussy heads!! they still dare imitate my voice. fug em... good for nothings! and they still have friends?? i am so bloody amazed.

k enough about them... makes my tummy turn... EEKS..

anyway... had a hard time calling up ly and mick today... got so frustrated I went out alone with Stephy for buffet. Today's buffet was good... well, not really.. same food. but i got to eat the delicious apple strudel. hmm.... interesting things happened today. this old man like.. 50-60 years old?? kept smiling at me.... was sitting opposite our table.... felt a little uncomfortable.. but nah... i covered my face with my hair. wat a stupid thing to do. ahha... then won 10 dollars today.. not bad la... actually won like 20 plus... but eh.... lost it all while waiting for stephie.. hee.. it's always the case. went to this convenience stall to buy internationall calling card... and i asked the guy "hi, have u got GPS?" he said no. "how bout international calling....." guy,"no, no, no, no!" me,"...card?" then i stared at him with half my eyebrow raised. he laughed. he said yeah we do. but no gps.. then he showed me.. but he asked me to get GPS from 7-11... anyway, he was nice.. cute as well. hoho... burp.

since we didnt feel like goin home that early.. stephy and i went to the strip club. it was funny seeing us both carrying shopping bags into a strip club.. and there wasnt a single female customer in sight. all males.... quite a lot of people.... but well.. the stripper showed that kinda look as in "wat are u doin here, girls?" yeah.. haha.. but today's stripper =>sharma... was much better than the ones we saw the first time. she played a lil peekaboo.... but she was good i guess... ehhe... i'm not les, btw.

haiz.. have to go search for proposal format =(

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