Wednesday, June 30, 2004
morning blog.
woke up to nigel's sms... but nah, it wasn't entirely his sms which woke me up. wasn't sleeping very well last night. remembered myself playing with the blanket all nite. kept pullin.
oh yah.. i'm glad the power is restored. yesterday there was a
power outage across singapore. my area - north side, serangoon.. was restored quickly. but areas like holland v especially took 2 hours. i was at cookie's place.. then after i reached the bus stop which was facing holland v, suddenly the whole area just blacked out. i thought i was dreaming. but no, it was for real. i begin to wonder what's going on at the many restaurants at holland v.. and also at the supermarkets. will people be looting? haha... but again, it was an interesting sight. looking at the streets make me feel like i was in japan or san francisco once again. i remember, after night falls, the streets that are not in the city would be rather dark.. just like what holland v was. aww.. i miss SF!!!
and that wanteng.. what a cracknut she is... think she did too much copywriting. well, she smsed all of us and said stuff like "the whole neighbourhood screamed with joy as lights finally came back on, taking them out of the darkness they have been living in for the past 1 hour or so - reporting live from toh guan" cute huh...
today yJ's gonna be caned... for punching this kid called sean. well i guess he knows what he's doin'. he promised not to act on impulse anymore. but he didn't regret punching that snob sean. you see, sean is some MP's son. but he has been expelled from another school before. and he's bloody irritatin, as my brother puts.. yes, and sean was walkin and used his shoulder to knock into my bro's fren. after that, he still had the cheek to start a quarrel saying my bro's fren has eyes grown somewhere else or what.. kids nowadays. ya and my brother got pissed off he wanted to pull the guy out of the classroom during recess or after school i can't remember.. and the guy did some action. yj tot he was gonna punch him, so immediately punched that guy. haha.... so sean went to tell the discipline master.
Oh God, bless Yj please. Hope he doesn't fight or get himself into trouble ever. I can't be looking after him when I'm in Australia. Though I'll only be there for 3 months, these 3 months are his most crucial months cos he'll be taking his N levels in October...
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08:55
Monday, June 28, 2004
oh boy.. just came back. wat a hot day... anyway, went to set up my bank a/c with commonwealth bank. the lady was really nice.. sweet woman, i must say.. with a nice name - Regina. Leow. Same surname as the canon girl. But gee.. who cares. haha...
Then went chinatown...
talked to papa about indians. Asked him why he hated indians so much. and i kept tellin him i had this thing for indians.. and he asked me to shut up. he says if i was gonna marry an indian, he said do it after he dies... but well, we'll see.. haha.. i don't know what the future beholds for me.
oh yah... morning went with mummy to ocbc bank at raffles place.. saw this indian guy. he was really smart and cute.. in fact i saw 2. one was the policeman.. he was good looking. and the other one looked like a professional. but he was balding... and married. saw his ring. too bad... haha.. crazy girl.. sound helluva horny..
oh yah.. saw randall tan today. with dominiq... was thinkin if i could catch siew ling... that woman!!!!! always msg her dun wanna reply. i think she's forgotten me...
wonder how was yijin's first day of school.. he died his hair black.. haha.. but i guess soon the black dye will fade and he will have to dye again. now he will soon face the consequences of bleachin his hair!!!
the days to go to brisbane is nearing.. and i don't know what am i feeling. i think i'll feel damn lonely.. will be celebrating my birthday alone.. but well... one of my classmates will be celebrating alone as well... his bday is a week after mine.. heh..
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17:25
gee.. thanks yijin. i say.. THANKS A LOT!!!! thanks for sneezing all over me you ass!!! yijin's my brother. and how ashamed am i to announce to the whole world that i have a brother like him!
i miss those days when he was just a little kid with a big ass.. well, his ass is still as big now.. but he's changed. he used to be so much in love with me. uh not in love... he used to stick to me, listen to me. we'll do everythin together. but things have changed now.. he does all the mean things to me. used the cushions to throw at me.. mad boy. yesterday, he beat someone up. tryin to act as some gangster he! *sigh
but well somethin happened today that made us both laugh till we had stiches. i came out of the bath room and screamed at him to get out of my room cos i wanted to change.. then after changing, i opened my door again and i just hid behind the pillar. goodness.. he was also doing the same to me. he was hiding behind the pillar at his room. then we bent over.. and saw each other doing the same stuff. so funny.. i asked him what was he doin. he wanted to scare me... so did i.. haha... despite us always quarelling and fighting, we do have some things in common that we can laugh about huh.. that's comforting!
went for my class from polytechnic gatherin... was pretty boring at first. we just went there, sat in our small group. the rest were all part of a big group... but anyway, we just sat there waiting for them to serve us. i mean it was natural. it just felt kinda weird to stand in the middle of a big group of people u're not familiar with! and we're suppose to bbq our own food.. they didn't even bother to bbq some food for us. aw man... but just when the "party" was beginnin to hype up... we had to leave... sob sob... but well, gettin over it.....
saw esh's pic on friendster. boi.. he looked hot. but too bad.. his personality sucks. he and his fuckin superficiality!!!
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00:12
Sunday, June 27, 2004
oh boy.
listenin to buddha sutra now... i can't believe i'm listening to something so holy.. but i don't feel weird bout it at all. well, it's my religion. my brother will be like "oh gosh. my sis is actually listening to sutras" but nah who cares. my mum will be glad.
well, was reading somethin about buddhism.. in the toilet... i don't suppose i should do that, but i got nothing to read. got this sick habit of reading when i'm shittin. hehe... anyway, i felt i needed to listen to sutras after reading those few pages..
reading and listenin about buddhism made me thought of some stuff.. like yesterday, when cookie went to visit the fortune teller.. which actually leads me to think about fate. mrs gordon said somethin about right hand and left hand. your life lies in your right hand. like what you do presently. then your future lies in your left hand that kinda thing. really very bazarre how some things happen... but well.. hehe
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10:38
Saturday, June 26, 2004
so tired... *yawnz* spent my day at cookie's. oh boy.. he really can cook~ ate somethin called a puri (pronounced poo-ree) today.. very nice. indian food.. and also ate some kinda chick pea curry. was delicious.. but i couldn't take the puri that well... extremely "Doughy"... but overall, the food was good.
went to the fortune teller with him. that woman, mrs gordan.. heard she was thai. oh yeah. she came from thailand in 1937 i think..and she speaks in a mixture of english, malay, cantonese and hokkien. really interesting. though she didn't read my fortune, but those that she told cookie, he felt that they were quite true... i thought so...
oh shit. just saw kumar online.. better act as if i slept on the keyboard. he's gonna msg me silly stuff.. asking me to mms my pic to him. why'd he want my pic for..
anyway, after the visit to the fortune teller, i've been thinkin about my life. like what am i gonna do after my diploma... and stuff like marriage!! oh gosh.. i don't know why am i thinking of marriage...
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23:49
Friday, June 25, 2004
heh.. did this kiss thingy...
darn. javen must be critisizing me now. this bastard. always scold me... just cos i dun need to work, and when he wanna go out wif him, i'm always busy. idiot...
suppose to meet siti.. but well, i was lazy la.. ahha.. i'm always lazy!!!!! been slacking the day away. since i came home, sat down in front of the computer till now... boring boring~
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21:58
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21:57
haha nice pics eh.... see myself in my lingerie.. hahaha~ taken from www.mvm.com
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20:30
geez... dunno what the hell is wrong with me.. still having the head spins. i've already recovered from my watever illness. but my world is still spinning leh... at my aunt's place now. must be the taxi driver who took us here. i don't think he knows how to drive. keep stepping on the brakes.
i think i'm addicted to chocolate ice cream... keep wanting to eat the fudge ice cream.. haha.. with marshmallows. yummy...
cant wait for the class gathering on sunday. wnana go jogging with siti first.. den eat. good huh. exercise den eat. wat the hell... i'm not relaly keen to lose weight nowadays..
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14:44
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
makeover game @ ivillage.com
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02:28
some digital illustration i tried using my bro's pic as a sample... ehhe... first time doing such stuff.
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01:45
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
realised what an ass i had been. don't even know i can add bold or italics or set hyperlinks in my blog =P haha... how STUPID.
anyway, had a real boring day... slacked the day away. wanted to go somewhere, but felt like puking. forced myself to vomit. felt better.. at least not so bloated... the curry must be contaminated!!!! i shall not visit the stall ever again~
haiz. sometimes when i need to use the PC, my bro's here to stop me. But now, I dun need to use the PC, he's out. and i feel so damn bored now.. too full to sleep anyway.... so keep slacking =P
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23:57
here's another one...
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14:14
Check out my little darlin'... look at what a sweetie she is!!! isn't she adorable??
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14:13
i wonder what's with the customer service industry. what are those people doin'. yesterday was just telling myself how satisfied i was with Qantas' customer service. but today when i called, i'm so pissed off with this indian woman. so blardee rude. well no la.. she just didn't sound friendly. like so blardee hostile. haha... but anyway. i'm glad i've confirmed my flight. but what's with these people.. LADIES! it's already tuesday... why're they acting as if they're having monday blues. eeks...
damn. played with crystal today... she's such a cutie!!! i shall miss her a hell lot when i'm over there... hee
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14:02
Monday, June 21, 2004
aww down with flu and fever!!! but thank goodness the fever is subsiding. feel like jelly now.. haha rotting on my chair, chatting to Nua Mao....
been 3 days since sarah brightman's concert. her concert was a... BLAST!!!! i love her, i really do... she's so sweet.. and her voice is so sweet.. hehehe... i wish i had a voice like hers. and she's so small sized!!
yeah. finally have a confirmation booking for the air tickets for liuyong and mick. although it's not my responsibility to book the tickets for them, i like doing things for them, cos it trains me to be more responsible and independent i guess.. rather than just sit around waiting for people to help me do things. i won't learn much that way. at least i gave the travel agency a piece of my mind when i told the receptionist that i didn't wanna speak to that ill mannered malay girl. she was so damn rude. when i called her to ask about some stuff about my travel itenery, she was like "aiya. make me so blur." i was like.. wat the hell. is this the kinda language you use to speak to ur customer? and she also sounded damn frustrated. if i didn't hear wrongly, she DID raise her voice a little. and it's like everytime i call, it's her picking up. but well, the receptionist apologised. but anyway, they took a long time to call me back.. so i made a booking with Qantas. at least the customer service officer was a lot better than the malay woman... she's so much cheerful and friendly.
went out wif my sec sch juniors, san and joan... joan really was embarassin today. kept laughing and talkin damn loud. but well, she does that all the time. funny.. she acts really kiddish in front of san but not me. and we seem to can talk more... dunno what's in her mind though. but i was happy to meet both of them today.. it seems as if i was gonna die soon... CHOY. TOUCH WOOD.
i guess when i'm over there, i'll be missing crystal a hell lot.. just now i told her "crystal, let's bring u back to ur homeland" crystal is born in australia, raised in singapore. haha.. singaporean PR. =P no wonder she can't understand chinese. CRUDE.
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23:17
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
woke up this morning feeling really tired. my eyes were swollen and my toe hurt big deal. a small piece of somethin got stuck in my skin and had to take a needle to dig it out. Feel so good now that it's out...
I woke up feeling empty. For a moment, I forgot that i just broke up with kev. wonder how's he feeling now... i feel like a total bitch, an asshole. his image keeps coming into my mind. is that what you call breakup aftermath?
Though i was the one breaking up... i cried. but just a few tears. why am i such an idiot. i can't even understand myself, my actions. all i know is that i'm darn fickle minded..... shit u, ying.
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09:23
sorry dear... I can't stop myself from complaining about you. Finally, I can end all this shit. Ever since I went steady with you, I've been feeling so damn low... you gave me laughters, you gave me tears... now that we've broken up....... i wish a girl will come into your life and guide you into the matured way of life, and doing things. Don't do anything foolish, cos i'm not worth it.
i keep thinking of reasons to break up with you.. but i can't find any. i know.. i'm going to regret breaking up with u.. but i'd rather end it early than end it later, when our love is hot like fire... it'd hurt terribly. i'm not crying now, but i know u are... u'll always be preserved in my memory.. i'll always think of the happy times we shared. i wish u happiness...
i'm a bitch. i know.....i love to be pampered, to be shown respect - all of which, i couldn't feel it from u at all... i'm sorry.. but again, which woman doesn't love to be treated like a princess???
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00:20
Sunday, June 13, 2004
had a good day today... had a nice person to serve me all day long. cooked me thosai and curry, made bread toasts for me.. and everythin nice.
kevin went for his swimming competition today. got in 2nd for the individual category... but i didn't feel happy for him. seems like somethin between him and me has faded. sorry but this is the cruel truth.. it's time to go... i guess i wanna stop letting him make me feel so low. he's always demeaning me.. like saying stuff like i'm a glutton or fat or watsoever. i don't deserve such treatment from anyone... no one in this world does.. especially for people like me -- fat. we already suffer enough under the prying eyes of others who think they're damn pretty and sexy... and to suffer this kinda verbal torture hurled at us, it will only make our moral deep further. it's time we loved ourselves, people.. or i'd like to put it => it's time we continue loving ourselves.
actually all this while i've been thinking. i know maybe one of my frens readin my blogs.. i dunno what she thinks.. but she might be saying like "why the hell is ke ying like that".. watever. haha...
i asked kev why'd he wanna go steady with me... cos all his previous gfs were all slim and good looking. he told me that i was the fattest and the ugliest.... right into my face. cool huh. anyway... ya. he said he sort of told himself that since he got no luck with good lookers, he better get an ugly one... so that the relationshp will last... i think i'll feel damn good if i tell him i'm breaking up cos i fell for another guy. that'd be good aint it?
i know.. i hold grudges. i already tried erasing every bad memory i had with kev.... but yesterday he was really mean. that look on his face.. people said that i was over sensitive.... i am, but is sensitivity something that you can change?
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23:29
1:35 and I can't sleep... was actually already sleeping at 11pm just now.. but my bro's wC woke me up... he turned on the speaker damn loud. Had a chat with him.. found out he smoked... or rather, used to smoke. GOSH. At least he told me now... he also has a desire to go clubbin. I hope he doesn't get into any gang fights or take drugs.. I'm gonna kill him if he does.
Thinkin of what happened just now. Went out with Kevin.. I thought I was already beginning to love him again.. it went quite well for the past 2-3 weeks until today... I felt like a slave.. that he's a bloody male chauvanist we call a pig. hmm... first we went to his fren's saloon.. let the people there cut his hair. Took a bloody 1 hour to cut botak. Trainee. But well anyway.. after that went to eat. I seriously didn't know what to eat. I wanted to eat steamboat, but he didn't want. So he said somethin like "What you wanna eat? You decide la, u hungry mah." I dunno why, but I was a little unhappy about the way he said "You hungry mah" It's as if I'm hungry and he's not. The way he said it is like.. I'm a glutton, as in i need to eat all the time. Actually he himself is hungry, but he said he's a little full... so I said I din wanna eat, and I could see him lose his cool. But I was happy.. I hated him at that point of time, but still... I tried maintainin my cool as well...
Then, we went to the market near his house... that was when I cried. I dunno why I cried lor.. but he did something that made me feel hurt... very hurtful. First, he asked me to sit down while he go get somethin. Then, he asked me to go with him. I felt lazy anyway, so I just sat down and watched him walk to the stall. Suddenly he just turned around and showed a frustrated kinda face and signalled me to go over.... that kinda expression was as if I was his maid and I was damn slow. I hated him for that. How'd u feel if your bf treated u that way? He says he loves u, but his actions prove otherwise.....
In a way, after meeting a new pal.. his name is cookie... he's a very sensitive guy, i feel. He can sense what am i thinking... and really cares a great deal how i feel. he knows i'm sensitive.... well after meeting him, i keep comparing kevin to him. I wish kevin was just half as caring as cookie...
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01:34
Saturday, June 12, 2004
what a tiring day... have sore eyes =( and havin so much trouble tryin to blink!!! but well, anyway.. met NUA MAO today. He damn cranky. He lame to me right... I lame back to him. Luckily he's not that lame. Still can tolerate him.. haha... but I think he almost couldn't tolerate me. Watever. Oh ya.. and he even called me "Statue of Watever" cos I kept stoning... I was tired la.. and I didn't know how to play any pop songs i already felt bad enough. And he didn't know what to name me.. so just statue of watever. Initials ==>SOW. kaoz. Coincidental eh...
Played "The Man in the Poster is Smilin' at Me" to Nua Mao. He said it's not bad. Wait till he listens to our DEMO!!! hahaha~
Saw this guy on irc today. He asked me to be a narrator... like do voice over for a film that he was gonna do. Very aggressive script I must say... and tryin to perfect my pronunciation of "Hi Yerr" Hehe...
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00:40
Thursday, June 10, 2004
okiEe... so i AM goin to australia after all. thanks to my aunt... she's gonna sponsor my air tix and also my tuition fees. Yeah. Thank You... I didn't think she'd pay or want me to go. Life's such a contradiction right. Seeems like just a while ago the whole world is telling me not to go the the UNBENEFICIAL overseas intern. Then, now it's like people are telling me to go. Wat the hell.
Anyway... I'm not the only person to go. Will be goin with my two classmates, Mick and UTHAI. I wonder how he got that name -->UTHAI. He refuses to tell me. Anyway.... if they're expecting me to be their maid, wishful thinking. Well I don't really mind though... they'd just have to tolerate me for ironing their undies till there are holes in em and also burnt food. Haha!!!
But i'm kinda excited la...
Sick today.. but still in school. Gotta do some stuff for the intern.
Oh yah.. saw Mas today. She's still the same cute girl.... haven't changed much. I think she looks much better without make up. But still, I was happy to see her... think of the good times!!!
Boy I'm just so excited to go jamming tomorrow with Chris. Yoohoo~ My VIRGIN jam session =P
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16:17
Saturday, June 05, 2004
finally james ang replied.. what a long wait. His e-mail brought a little bit of happiness... cos the school fees will be AUD2000 instead of the original AUD7,500. But what follows soon after is a heartbreak. Mum doesn't allow me to go. FUCK.
She says she's tight for money. At that time I already told her to go there for my internship program I need 20k, and she was like "no prob. go ahead". Now, the amount is only 8k, and she says NO. If she already has got financial problems.. she should tell me frankly. Now, when I thought "WOW! Wat a lot of money less!" She has to give me false hopes... I can't go!!!! but well... I guess I'll just have to accept it...
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00:04
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
I've been accepted into QUT. i mean as an intern student. but i'm havin second thoughts bout it.. cos the main reason why i applied for an overseas intern is that this lecturer said, in summary:
intern @ QUT = 2 sems to complete degree;
intern locally = 3 sems.
however.. when the QUT representative came over.. she told us with or without an internship @ QUT, we still have to complete 3 semesters. and the more absurd part is... we have to retake the modules that we take at QUT during intern, in the 3rd year of the QUT degree program. and!!! gotta pay like 20K for an internship program.???? that's really a lot.. PLUS.. we still gotta pay school fees @ SP. Never mind if u dun understand.. haha
talkin to my bf now. argh! he's pissin mi off.
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