Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Wednesday, January 07, 2004

dunno what's on my mind recently. just feel... kinda... hmm... uncomplete? like a part of me is missing.. i guess i was so affected by the dissapearance of esh in my life.. i wasn't feeling really THAT sad for the lost love over him. i guess what i really had.. was fear.. the deep fear in me. the deep fear that wasn't only from the love i wanted.. what i wanted was what we had, what we started our with in the first place. it was our friendship.. a long lasting friendship i had thought we would establish as time goes by. but this want has changed into a need.. i need a friend like him.. to come comfort me, console me, be an asshole.. i wanna know what's going on in his life.. so i felt so terribly hurt when he left me .. so silently... and taking my heart, breaking this friendship, putting this friendship to a stop.. just like that.. for a short one week, i didn't really feel alone. now, i feel worst than i was before i met him... but... he won't give a damn....

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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