Tuesday, April 20, 2004
been sufferin from blows this week.. firstly it was iwed.. scored badly - failed.. and now cani... i thnk we're gonna like get a C.. oh man this sem sucked. what happened to me... sigh.. am i gonna lose my australian seating? and if dat bitch scores well for all her modules... i think i wont be able to take it. she's so fuckin smart man.. to just hitch on the project and do nothing yet she scores. fuck her. useless bum.
damn been having mixed feelings. threw my temper at kevin yesterday.. had some kinda communication breakdown. was feelin damn sick of him yesterday... wat happened? i'm not sure either.. i just remember that i got angry with him cos he played some sick joke on me and when i did the same to him he kinda like shouted at me and my mood switched from there. he shouted at me twice. i couldnt take it. when i talked to him he didn't wanna seem to listen.. and i began to think of other guys.. gosh.
thought of that dark horse. i havent forgot him till now..in fact he has always been on my mind.. just i didn't tell anyone about it. they might laugh at me.. he will also sneer at me... am i an idiot or not.. i definitely am.. kevin loves me so much yet.. i can't seem to return him all that he's givin me. i just have this problem carrying on a rship after 3 months.. the feeling will just gradually die out. and it's like dying.. damn.. i don't know. i'm contradicting. half the time i dun even know what am i doing. do i need to be in a rship? being alone is so much better.. but i yearn being loved. ahaha.. desperado u may call me...
*sad,torn,disgusted*
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00:10
Saturday, April 17, 2004
yippee~ finally handed up all my assignments. well..except for ONE - Design and aesthetics... don't really know how or what to start with in the first place. whenever i think of deae.. i wonder if i am creative.. the works i produce is like shit.. compared to the others. they really produce superb, trendy and hip works whereas mine's like no originality. damn!!!
ehhe..
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11:58
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Life's been real shitty nowadays... well not really nowdays.. at least.. for this semester at school... at the beginning of the semester, i told myself i wanted to do well this sem. but everything went wrong. i did really disgusting assignments.. my work was like shit. it didn't meet all the requirements of my lecturers. even entrepreneurship. the module i look most forward to. it was a module i thought i could do well.. but no... was the lecturer prejudiced against me or is it just me? is it just that i suck at my work and i can only come out with sub quality work? this really frightens me... i've always thought i'm quality stuff. i do admit i'm a snob at times. i despise work that are worst than mine. but that doesnt mean people won't say that to me. i refuse to accept comments given by people. but damn.
back to the day... had IWED presentation today. totally screwed up. lecturer says it's really kinda impossible to pass us. this assignment is 40%... and.. IWED... is really one subject that i can do well i guess. it's like webP.. i got a B for it. but anyway.. we were suppose to upload our site to the remote server. but we were late and by the time we wanted to upload.. the site was closed and locked. we can't do anything. told the lecturer.. he said he can't help us.. there's nothing he can do... sigh.. to think i spent so much time and brain cells to do the admin pages.. they all got overwritten by BACKdated pages. suck. i'm really afraid of failing... and i wanna go australia. and i guess it will affect me being selected for the overseas intern.. FUCK. shit happens.. yah.. wat a fucked up world.
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20:34
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
ahemz.. gettin real chatty today. have so much to let out!!!! yesterday.. kevin was real sweet... went to dover to accompany me home. and damn i was having this serious migraine.. didn't speak to him the whole bus ride. and he was sleeping also.. hehe... but well.. really appreciated what he did.. was the first time he ever did that.. and also the first time he called me "Darling".. haha.. i was.. and am.. seriously touched. so i smsed him.. he was like "don't make my hair stand".. ahha.. 100% true asian CHINESE.. so ancient.. obviously very chinese educated... but nah his chinese sucks as much as mine.. haha.. he's just not that kind who'll comment you or whisper sweet nothings cos of his very conservative way of thinking...
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10:42
Blog blog.. how've u been.. haha.. havent been doin this to u for a long time.. are u horny yet?? *goodness* i think i've lost my mind!!!
ahha.. been stressed up for a long long time.. so stressed up that i forgot to submit my resume to mr ang for intern... really hope i can get into melbourne uni.. the requirements are quite high, i heard... but well.. i really do wish to get my degree when i turn 20!!! and hopefully i can reach my target of earning 4k when i'm 26...
yucks my keyboard's getting extremely dirty.. black... eeks.
oh anyway.. 've got a serious migraine.. since yesterday. it still kinda hurt now... not as much though. having entrepreneurship test later. been thinking about how that mr cho's been treatin my group. think he practices favouritism. obviously.. in my opinion, we've done a good job. we've done the most detailed research, more than anyone has every done.. and HE refuses to sit down to listen and watch us present out proposal. he was like completely branded us as "hopeless". it's so unfair. we have so much to show him, and he refuses to listen. standing at the front of the classroom, that look on his face turns me off. i wanted to show him how we got our cost price.. which is a tedius process - i did it all in accounting format. and he didn't even bother to watch! .fark. damn he sucks man... and we're so different from the other groups. god knows where they got their cost price from. we took into consideration all the other things involved like manufacturing, labour, transportation, cost of starting a company. the others didnt even think of this. and he kept shootin at us. has anyone told him that "ie" means ExAMPLE?? no.. the guys in our group are dumb asses. refuse to discuss and don't wanna get involved in group discussions. with them around, we just slow down. so fuck em all. wat to do?
"SHIT HAPPENS"
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