Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

been sufferin from blows this week.. firstly it was iwed.. scored badly - failed.. and now cani... i thnk we're gonna like get a C.. oh man this sem sucked. what happened to me... sigh.. am i gonna lose my australian seating? and if dat bitch scores well for all her modules... i think i wont be able to take it. she's so fuckin smart man.. to just hitch on the project and do nothing yet she scores. fuck her. useless bum.
damn been having mixed feelings. threw my temper at kevin yesterday.. had some kinda communication breakdown. was feelin damn sick of him yesterday... wat happened? i'm not sure either.. i just remember that i got angry with him cos he played some sick joke on me and when i did the same to him he kinda like shouted at me and my mood switched from there. he shouted at me twice. i couldnt take it. when i talked to him he didn't wanna seem to listen.. and i began to think of other guys.. gosh.
thought of that dark horse. i havent forgot him till now..in fact he has always been on my mind.. just i didn't tell anyone about it. they might laugh at me.. he will also sneer at me... am i an idiot or not.. i definitely am.. kevin loves me so much yet.. i can't seem to return him all that he's givin me. i just have this problem carrying on a rship after 3 months.. the feeling will just gradually die out. and it's like dying.. damn.. i don't know. i'm contradicting. half the time i dun even know what am i doing. do i need to be in a rship? being alone is so much better.. but i yearn being loved. ahaha.. desperado u may call me...
*sad,torn,disgusted*

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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