Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Sunday, June 13, 2004

had a good day today... had a nice person to serve me all day long. cooked me thosai and curry, made bread toasts for me.. and everythin nice.

kevin went for his swimming competition today. got in 2nd for the individual category... but i didn't feel happy for him. seems like somethin between him and me has faded. sorry but this is the cruel truth.. it's time to go... i guess i wanna stop letting him make me feel so low. he's always demeaning me.. like saying stuff like i'm a glutton or fat or watsoever. i don't deserve such treatment from anyone... no one in this world does.. especially for people like me -- fat. we already suffer enough under the prying eyes of others who think they're damn pretty and sexy... and to suffer this kinda verbal torture hurled at us, it will only make our moral deep further. it's time we loved ourselves, people.. or i'd like to put it => it's time we continue loving ourselves.

actually all this while i've been thinking. i know maybe one of my frens readin my blogs.. i dunno what she thinks.. but she might be saying like "why the hell is ke ying like that".. watever. haha...

i asked kev why'd he wanna go steady with me... cos all his previous gfs were all slim and good looking. he told me that i was the fattest and the ugliest.... right into my face. cool huh. anyway... ya. he said he sort of told himself that since he got no luck with good lookers, he better get an ugly one... so that the relationshp will last... i think i'll feel damn good if i tell him i'm breaking up cos i fell for another guy. that'd be good aint it?

i know.. i hold grudges. i already tried erasing every bad memory i had with kev.... but yesterday he was really mean. that look on his face.. people said that i was over sensitive.... i am, but is sensitivity something that you can change?

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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