Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Sunday, January 23, 2005

::emotions::
it has been a really long time since i last worked this late while listening to music. the whole saturday, i was busy cleaning up my room.. as well as getting my project to work. i really have got to make it work.. to prove my worth.. cos it seems like.. i can be quite good at resourcing, searching for good stuff and all.. but i just lack the capability to carry out the task of putting it all together. now that we've come to a stage where we need to seek help of friends outside the group.. i dont know.. i just pray something will happen.. well.. i just pray, ultimately.. i can at least do some coding.. make the damn form work.

listenin to those out of date songs.. really made me think of loadsa stuff in the past. uh.. gettin really emotional. it's as if every single song reminds me of a different occassion... listenin to ocean.. i thought about hidir. he could sing ocean's song really well.. lol. i've not fallen for him, btw...
these few days.. i've been thinking about this guy whom i used to like around a year ago. we didn't end up together.. cos i'm quite sure it's about my size.. and also.. he wasn't really seeking for a relationship, i guess.. but i hated him then. till now.. i seldom contact him. he wanted to meet up, but i really dont want to.. only reason being.. i'm still the fat me lah... and.. i'm afraid to face him and think about our past. lol.. emotional creep. -_-"

"it took me 40 years to find my paradise, when will u meet ur paradise?"
- my aunt

let's not talk about love now.. will just try to toss it to the back of my mind. haha... but u know.. i used to cry at odd hours of the night, like 2-3am if i'm not asleep, though not all the time. that's usually when i listen to the songs i'm listening to now.

anywayz.. mum found out that yj smokes.. i had tried to hard to conceal his secret. but that careless boy! left his cigarettes and lighter in his pocket. dumb.. but well, yj, if u're reading.. please do me a favour, quit okay? do it for those who care for u, dear boy..

isn't crystal a sweetie.. she just came to my room and scratched my thighs =) this morning she was sitting beside me on the chair.. and i had my hands crossed across my tummy. and she stuck her little hairy head in the gap between my arms and my hip.. then.. she started pushing her way through until her head was resting on my tummy. sweet tubs.. i love her!

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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