Saturday, April 02, 2005
so bleak, bleak, bleak...went to watch
spanglish with wanteng today.. and our date was to watch SWING GIRLS... but someone. haiz.. better dun talk about it =P the gurlies would know..
anywayz... it's a splendid show. really touches your heart. and the plot is so different. it's not like some cinderella where the 2 accidental couples fall in love and run away together. it's another thing. how much a mum is willing to sacrifice for the good of her kid.
flora really reminds me a lot about marta. they look almost exactly the same. i think a character would look perfect if marta and flora's looks were combined. she'd be FLAWLESS. man.. i think spaniards are H.O.T.
i just received a letter from jason... he's changed a lot. from an illiterate gangster to a grown up man. uses boombastic words like.. flabbergasted and procrastinate. i dont even know what procrastinate means. damn. he again... knocked some sense into my head. and he's left me more confused than ever. that bubble that i've temporarily busted for the moment returned to the top of my head again.
my future is so so bleak.
he asked me what am i going to do now.. that i've completed my diploma studies. i seriously dont know. even though i've applied for the two unis.... i doubt i can go in at all. well, if i dont.. i'll just go work. fuck it.
if i were to study, what should i study. should i go for what i wanna do, or should i go for the paper. seriously... cJL, another fren, he says i'm goin into uni for all the wrong reasons. well, that's exactly what i am doing. the reason why i applied for uni....... was to please my parents.
u see.. in a parents - parents conversation. what do they talk about? they talk about the achievements of their kids. my kid is bla bla bla, how bout urs. is ur kid as great as mine? there is this level of competency parents like to put their kids through. they like to fucking compare. alright.. i'm thankful my mum doesn't really mind if i dont get into uni. but she said.. to go on - just for my dad. so that he can hold his head up high and say,"hey, my daughter's a university graduate." but so wat? i mean.. university graduates don't own the world.
actually i hate university graduates. they act like they're kings and queens, looking down on everyone else. oh yah, everyone is stupid except for me. at work, they expect to be treated darn well. excuse me for being stereotypical, but i think a diploma holder can work just as well as a degree holder. if u're tlaking about level of expertise in a profession, of course a degree holder excels. but EQ wise, i think poly grads are much better off than jC young pungs. talk about the level of responsibility and maturity. some kids don't learn.
argh. i hate uni. but god.. please give me a place in SMU. it's nearly close to what i like, so PLEASE!!! even if i dont like UNI, please.. give me something that i like so that i won't suffer in there for 4 years!!!!!
Dreamed a PuRpLe
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