Sunday, May 22, 2005
i have a confession to make.
i havent visited gym for a week and i've been overeating.
there she goes again, u say. i've heard her giving up so many times. it's the same thing again. sick and tired of hearing it.yah lor. i'm not a man of my words. i cant stick to what i say. i've got low determination. i cant accomplish things. darn. it's such a chore to climb out of bed at 6am everyday and jog for 1 hour... i can't do it, i can't do it!! RADON, I CAN'T DO IT!!!!!!
You can, Ke Ying, YOU CAN. Just believe in yourself. There are so many people giving you support. And at the same time there are so many people waiting to see you fail yet again. Show it to them. Show the losers your will. Go on. You still have 2 months to prove yourself. 2 months. You can do it, YOU CAN DO IT!!!The flighty me at work again. The Devil and the Angel. The Encourager and the Discourager. To Procrastinate or Not To. I can't fucking make up my mind. like wat xiaocheng says -5/10-
anyways. back to one of my boring facets of life as a 19 year old. old time friend, jimimi called. "killing". i heard that he and carol might be tying the knot soon. hopefully. probably have to wait till he comes out of NS. what a couple. i feel happy for them. and i realise.. suddenly i have friends who are going to get married soon. way too early. *cluck cluck cluck*. as much as i would have liked to find a suitable man and get married to him, i will not seal my youth this way. it'd be no better than imprisoning myself. i think i'm being very unfair to cheng.. oh well. my privy life.
life's funny. like what bran says all the time. sometimes life seems unfair. why do some people get slightly better treatment than others? why do bad people get away with things and yet good people have to take the rap? why are some people richer than those who slog like shit? and this one. why does everyone around me seem to have a good guy to take care of them and not me? ahha... that's not true. but. i get envious.
well watever the case, i believe everything happens for a reason. you sow what you reap. or is it u reap what u sow. -_-". i cant remember. watever it is, all that you give out will come back to you. it's just a matter of time. so when we give out something, like doing something good, we shouldn't keep thinking about when this goodness will come back to us. we'll worry ourselves sick if it bothers us THIS MUCH. so bran... just accept the fact. stop worrying and start living.
so much for my 1 cents worth of one of life's lessons.
Dreamed a PuRpLe
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