Saturday, May 28, 2005
jump.jump.jumpboy i should just jump down the buildin or somethin. so my heart will stop jumping. i've been feeling so gudamn jumpy of late. i've come to terms that i'll NOT get into SMU. i don't even know if we can appeal.. but well.. my mum has been bugging me to try.
but you know, i've been looking around for alternatives, for example, private universities. what do i look for in a course?? well.. first i look at my future. i want big money. and what helps me make big money? the most obvious answers i can think of, is to work in a bank, or start my own business. the latter seems highly impossible without that much needed capital. it has got to be at least a 5 digit number!!! gosh! money drives me, ultimately ;) money face. my dad calls me. well.. wat to do? we all live in a materialistic world. and i gotta pia first before i get kicked out of the house by my husband. he shall not have the chance to see me slog in misery as a divorcee.
oh well.. another facet of this major crisis i'm stuck in... is what is more important.. a course which acts as a ticket to the banking world, or a course which i'll enjoy?
i keep asking myself, "what are my interests." seriously, i don't know. i seem to like everything and i think i take interest in anything as long as i tell myself i like it. so i can begin to love something that i so hate. i don't know how is that possible.. but i can do it. dammit.
marketing and finance or just full finance course???
the bright future of being a private banker or financial officer... or some portfolio manager. oh boy. look at the salary figure!!!! ahha... first, i have to overcome my fear of percentages, probability, graphs and economics. i think smu must have declined my application cos they saw a big fat D on my result slip. haiz.
marketing??? it seems pretty fun.. you get to come out with promotional tactics, think of pricing strategies bla bla.. but somehow.. finance seems more exciting. and who knows one day i might join wanni in her quest? but i'd wanna specialise in investments. hohoho~
and it burns down to a very important question. should i wait for the next intake for smu??? my aunt says people with working experiences gain an edge over others. but by then i'll be 21!!! and by the time i graduate, i'll be 25. OLD HAG! how to survive sia....
i'm so tempted to get a private degree. it only takes like... 1-2 years. very tempting right? by the time i get my degree... people are still studying. hoho. but it all depends on my employer. see if he discriminates private degrees. i hope not. kns. aiya. how how how???
WO HAO FAN AH damn singapore's system. qualifications really matter that much mah??!!!! (yes, i bloody know it fucking fucking does) REALITY HIT ME FAST!!! (it's already sunken into me. gudamn it) i'm really on the verge of breaking out. pimples. argh!!!!!!!
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