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Sunday, June 12, 2005

am i your big sack of burden?

my gran asked me how much was my school fees. and i told her. she clucked her tongue,"so expensive...xxx" from the way she talked to me, i knew she was hoping i'd work part time so that i can support myself. i really wonder if i should just quit. i mean.. reject the acceptance. since she already put herself quite clearly. i feel like a burden. yet at the same time i can't help but feel that it's ultimately my parents' job to send me to school.. and i asked them if they can handle it financially if i were to enroll. they gave me a very convincing "YES, go ahead. You'll support us when u fully join the working force." so i'm so perplexed now. who should i believe?

chatted with my brother last night. in fact these few nights i've been talking to him a lot. plus.. we're sleeping in the same room now. it's funny, really. before we renovated our flat, i was sleeping with him. and my gran, in my current room. so.. after the renovation, my grandma sleeps with my brother. but now... my gran's back to her old room and me.. back with my brother again. okay... back to the point i was tryin to talk about.
i'm really glad that my brother has matured a lot. i'm so proud of him.. though he's towering above me... he seemed to have chosen his path in life - to be an aircon engineer. ever since working for my aunt, he has proven himself to be a person of good personality, of a certain positive calibre. he is responsible in that he does not work till 5:30 and go off on the spot. he'll complete whatever tasks he is given. and i'm glad he often stays around to see if anyone needs help. he's even a better worker than me, i suppose. and he's having a deep interest in electricity... so.. it's good. my mum and i are both very happy with him.

way to go, kiddo.

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