Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

edmund toh. so gorgeous. but wat happened to ur smartsuave dress sense?

today is the first day of the lunar month of may.. which is “初一”.. oh well. i went to the temple. as usual, there were a lot of devotees. but seeing this huge swarm of people.. i begin to wonder - what is it that brings them here, and why do people worship God or Deities at all? I know sometimes God or the Spiritual Beings do answer to some of our prayers. But, how is it that they do that? And then.... it comes down to me.. asking myself if I believe in religion and spirituality. I DO. But, why do i doubt things happen because God is helping us or because we're carrying out what God has laid down for us?

For me, I'm not sure if I'm a Buddhist or a Taoist. From what I know... in my IC, it's stated that I'm a Buddhist. But what exactly is the whole and total meaning of Buddhism, I don't know. And from what I comprehend and understand from my reading of Buddhist texts.. Buddhism is not a religion, but a believe. A believe that believes in purely true existence. And it talks a lot about enlightenment. Really... I'd be keen to know a Buddhist who knows exactly what Buddhism is all about.

As for all the devotees at the temple.. I'll make a guess what everyone is praying. I guess mostly.. people are making requests, asking the Gods to bless them with good health, bless their children with good grades, bless them to have a windfall even.. and even asking the Gods' advice as to what they should do.... strangely... their advices come in the form of sticks.. and it sort of answers your questions. Most of the time, my mother says that the Gods' answers are rather accurate. one example... is the result of my application to university -_-. maybe God has plans for me... which I'll only find out soon enough when the time comes. so.. other than making requests... what else can we do?? to worship the deities who look after us? that'll be another question that i will never get an answer for. haha... random stupid thoughts...

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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