Wednesday, June 22, 2005
yoohoo~ i'm pretty satisfied working here at the moment!! for the first time in weeks, i'm BUSY! oh yes, i'm extremely glad that alas, i can tell someone "hey, can i call u back? i'm busy" yay!!! lol... but i think i just got over the "busy period". i've finished what i ought to do. dont know what else will i be assigned to though..
meanwhile, i'm just trying to train up my vocals. not for the sake of singing though... the former executive had such a lovely, bright voice. she speaks like a child. so do i. but i'm a sick child. or i really sound like someone in bed. am either a baritone or a soprano. nothin in between. it sucks... and i have all that phlem stuck in my throat i find it so difficult to pronounce properly. man.. why's my voice like that??!!! i sound more like an illiterate than an executive. yucks.
i'm to start my course at SIM in august. first week of august. and i've enrolled for units i've never dreamt of excelling in - statistics and maths. i'll just pray and i wish i have all the luck in the world to pass. though, i really want to score rather than be satisfied with a pass. funny thing is, i haven't even got accepted by UOL yet. not to say the application. haven't even filled up the application. gawd. and the orientation's on 12th july. orientations really peeve me!! i'd rather find better things to do than to try to get close to someone i don't even know for the sake of winning a game or forming a team. aiya. alrite. the bottom line is, i hate socialising. i dont like to make new friends. i find it so difficult to just open my damn mouth!!! i am just so fucking anti-social! and....... i don't wanna see some strawberry covered with shit.
i know, we should never bear grudges. but to have fallen out with someone doesn't just go away like that. somewhat, the memories are still there. the bad impression stays on you like a scar. yes, it might go away some day, but u probably need to apply cream. bad impressions? i don't know. you need to keep psychoing yourself to forget the things that the person did to make you dislike her. i don't really think about those days when we were together, but when her name flashes somewhere or i see something that resembles her, i just feel like throwing up. forgive and forget, i shall try. but i will not talk to her, if i can help it. how? milz, help me. petals of the flower, help me....
okay, somethin to help cheer me up. ahha.. i cant help it.
Crystal is such a cutie!!! haha she's such a clown, such a sweet heart, such a darling!!!! just seeing her makes me feel so pure, like i'm back in my childhood. her actions are really innocent. was juz sprawled on the floor on my stomach reading the newspaper last nite. and she kept stepping all over the papers, thinkin i was enticing her to play with me or somethin. when she knew that she got ignored, (i actually pushed her away so i could read the printS) she jumped on me and kept licking my face, playin with my hair. lol... i love her! actually.. having a dog like her has kinda given me a certain sense of awakening. she's made me a better person. i feel that i'm more able to show love, care and concern more freely than i ever would, to those close to me. she was also the catalyst who helped bond my family members and i =) and she made me realise how important family members are. i'll never forsake them. and certainly not u, my little princess ;-)
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