Friday, July 22, 2005
finally, after being online ALONE while my dear looks on, hoping that he can also have a pc, he finally bought a PC. he's MAD. he bought his PC for 2000 dollars, inclusive of a monitor, keyboard and speakers. He's already got a surround sound system at home and yet.. an altec lansing set. was it altec somethin.. i can't remember. but you know, i'm quite mean. i've always been hoping that he's not able to get a PC.
i know that with a PC, we all can converse and play games online, surf for information bla bla.. but he has way too many games. He's infatuated with FF. i felt that technology will get into the way of any relationship. a very good example would be the television. after work, the whole family comes home and watches someone's favourite drama series. a member of the family is stressed. he tries to tell people about it, but no one listens because they are GLUED to the tv. television stops/prevents all kinds of communications, i suppose. it doesn't help in making your relaitonship better.
The same goes for a PC. there are many online addicts, i know. and with the evolving technology, no one can live without computers anymore. but seriously, it spoils the most native and traditional form of communication, which is "Conversation".
My greatest fear has been confirmed. I called him last night and he was online playing games. Talked to him and he did not answer much. So I made an excuse to put down the phone. I smsed him. And he replied only ONE WORD. that's it. I shall wait to see what happens in the next few days. I'm not gonna let a stupid computer jeapordise our relationship. What is a relationship without communication?
I do not wish him to be another Cookie.
Speaking of Cookie. I have again broken my promise. I've lost him, I guess. He's given up on me. That's what I wish he'd do... I don't want any more rekindling of feelings or hope anymore. He and I should just move on in life.
As I was muching on my breakfast - few sheets of seaweed - just now, I suddenly thought of Thomas. It's been so long since I met him or even talked to him on MSN. I wonder how's he doing. A friend of so many years. I've known him since 13. Online. And he truly is an inspiring friend. He taught me many things in life, gave me direction when I needed. He is sadly, I must say, the only person I can talk openly and freely with. He has that sense of maturity in which I can discuss my dreams with him, and he will guide me to accomplish them. I miss him SO MUCH. I should just send him an e-mail later.
Today's my papa's 63rd birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!
Am giving him some ang pow money. LoL...
And he's gonna buy suckling pig and cook chilli crabs. He'll be treating us Martini and loads of Carlsberg. I see a drinking contest between my brother and I tonite. HaHaHa!!
My aunt's going to US to look for her deardear!! Bon Voyage~ All the best, cheers!
Dreamed a PuRpLe
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