Saturday, July 23, 2005
we could never have, and we never will.
i went to cookie's house today and i finally saw how i could not accept him as my life-long partner. looks, age and race aside, it's his attitude that totally put me off. alright, i have sseen improvements in the communications "Sector".. but other than that, he's pretty much the same old boring cookie. yes, he cooks me nice stuff and feeds me. yet there are many things i cannot agree with him. i had to demand him to at least send me off till i get onto a taxi. but i told him to go off halfway as i was reaching the main road, which is about the distance to his condo. and he just went away like that after kissing me good night. i mean, hey.... is that the right way to treat a girl? did he really think that we could just kiss and make up just like that? or did he think that i'm THAT simple? I am NoT. he told me the reason he likes me so much is because of my simplicity. but no, i am not so simple. i'm not a simple girl though i might act like one. i was just addicted to you over-cajoling me, over-spoiling me with gifts, food, love, care and kisses. other than that, i do not feel any satisfaction, sadly. though i wish you would have treated me better in other common sense gentlemanly aspects. but why did you have to fail? do not blame me for being cold hearted as to abondon our love of a few months, but we were (are) really not meant to be.
in 2 weeks, he'll be gone to the land i've always dreamed of returning - queensland. for a project. he's requested to be posted there instead of kuala lumpur. while he's there, there will be plenty chances for him to meet an ideal wife. so many asians, so many chinese girls. there, i hope he will forget about me. though i do feel a sense of jealousy, it's all unfounded as i have already made up my mind to reject him. well, i just hope he'll find a good replacement. someone better even. u're really a kind soul and that no one should ever take advantage of. god bless.
and god bless the vulnerable old lady who called up the shop to ask me the day and date. god bless u too!
happy racial harmony day. today, we celebrate intercultural dependence, we celebrate the congregation of all the different races in unique singapore. sadly, chinese still hold there breathe when indians walk past. sadly, people still frown when a group of indians walk past. sadly, chinese call indians "blackies".
why is this still happening? of course i do not mean ALL Chinese, but through my observance and through true encounters by indian counterparts - these are the ugly notions of the society. thomas! come give these people a thought and open their minds to intercultural matters!
Dreamed a PuRpLe
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