Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Sunday, October 16, 2005

aww why did i even allow myself to fall into this silly state of desolation?

i feel so much in despair. i feel so bitter. as bitter as cL is to her busy life albeit her love for all things creative. she is bitter!!!

to a certain extent, her bitterness has spread to me. not that she said some nasty things to me. i just feel.. she's really bitter. her words are harsh and cold. and i can not stand talking to her this morning. i wanted to shun away from her. away from her bitterness.

i despise mankind. i loathe being born into my family. i hate my maid. i wish to throw food at everyone, stomp on food, vomit on people. i am sinful. i am a disgraceful sinner who wastes food and a glutton so to speak.

no one understands. not even my stinking brother whom i've always looked upon for solace. not even the best mum in the world understands. she doesn't understand. no one does. i hate my maid for laughing behind my back when i'm doing everything alone. fuck them.

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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