Dream a Little PurPINK Fantasy~

Sunday, April 30, 2006

my posts come in torrents :P

been having so many late nites recently. but i still feel that i'm not studying efficiently. i dont seem to remember ANYTHING i've studied!!! and my exams are just 10 days away. bollocks!

it's so boring to always have problems that are mostly studies related... it'd be nice to have some relationship problems isn't it? i must be mad! relationship problems!!! who says it's nice to have relationship problems!!???

talkin about relationships.... jason just got married yesterday. and..... i didnt go to his wedding. and! he's disappointed that i didnt go. not talkin to me at the moment. wait till he receives my card full of love. haa.... i just love 1 corinthians 13:4-7. simply... romantic, nice, sweet, TRUE.

to tell u the truth, i havent been really studying hard lately. having quite some fun fooling around. lol... went to xinling's birthday! lucky girl.. had 2 bday celebrations and some really wonderful presents.

do all of us actually have a right to be selfish? is being selfish good or bad? i think i'm rather selfish of late... but is it wrong to want to have the best of everything and not put my heart and soul into it? looking from another point of view, it is wrong. but from the position that i am in.... they didnt say it's wrong of me to do so.. and they didnt object.. though they know that's exactly where i'm heading to. what should i do........ help might come pouring in, but my heart and mind will not open up to any comments. i'm THE silly old fool.

i bet my folks and people around me will not be able to accept.. if i set my heart to be with him. firstly, he's of a different race. secondly, he's 16 years my senior... by the time i decide to get married, he'll already be near 50.... and when i'm 60, he'll be 76........ and..... i dont know if men live that long.... oh well.... i should shuff this up my shelf of thoughts and deal with it when there is a need to. for now, i'll just be led blindly by whatever the wind takes me to, or brings to me.

cheers to a life filled with tequila ponds.

Dreamed a PuRpLe DrEaM
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